Les Arbitres: An Well-Needed Revision and Reduction of Christian Priority Chapter 16

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An Well-Needed Revision and Reduction of Christian Priority

    This is our formal end of the fictional exploration of religions in this book (unless you wish to continue your prevailing residual thoughts by immersing yourself in my literary output on what the subject of your opinion on the politics of religion should be).  Everything that exists other than Love because of Love is the proper ending to an deeply emotional and meaningful exploration in the fictional detail and description of so many World Religions that have gone on here.

    Now, one of three things can happen here.  Russasha wakes up from her dream.  Russasha wakes up from her coma.  Or Russasha doesn't wake up from her coma but she does wake up from her dream.  Is this an kind of fate worse than death?  But, for effect, there are these 29 Kings whom stay with her upon the breach of her conscious thought into waking awareness.  And she half-expected to forget what it had meant in her last trail of the dream she had been aware of but forgot upon waking.  The 29 Kings were created out of the residual effect that existed after the announcement of measuring Time according Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna, an fictional brotherhood who all wore red hoodies and thought maybe there was an point here that someone got right: Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna could have been resurrected from the previous universe, which had been destroyed.

    And humans, many of whom were now unaware of it, had been around for almost as long as had been since the creation of the universe.  They had just educated themselves and learned enough to be able to cause entire portions of History to drop off from the awareness of its human masses.  In order to prove an point and prove an experiment.

    And so Russasha, up from her dream, (but which one) deciding she would be open to the idea of the first three important things to happen within an human mind were actually the imprint of Judaism, Christianity, and Christianna, all as separate characters to themselves, the awareness upon arriving in the further universe, in which God resurrected all three of these religions for logic and reward, consciousness of morals eventually to explain; whether we can really tell this is her lucid state in conscious awareness or we truly do exist is not known by us humans.  And if she (Russasha) is still in an coma and just simply dreaming that she has come awake—and she realized what she needed to do.

    She needed to make all of it come true by force.  And if she needed to stoop to the Artist's license to make art about it.  She would.  Not just by painting every day.  But by participating in the market economy to customize her lifestyle and product management budget.

    She was in control.  With her spending habits and her own created art world.

    All she had to do was live.

    All she had to do was keep herself alive and keep creating art.  Until it drove the people around her unto an further conclusion in the destiny system.

    Everyone deserved to achieve their destiny.  She just had to show it to them and prove it to them they had accomplished their destinies; by helping them through the most treacherous parts.  And showing them over and over again they knew where they were going and that's why they would eventually find the destiny held in allotment to them.  If the role of the artist was to show them their destiny, by showing them the parts they struggled with most difficulty with; and advising them another way to do it.  She could do it.  She could tell them exactly how they get torn down every single time‽  Of course she would do it for her own baby world: her baba ghanoush Russian mother Russia.

    And that meant wearing Black instead of Blue; and wearing Purple instead of Blue.

    And wearing an charm for fashion.

    Flaring it out an bit.  Accessorizing.

    You don't want them necessarily only to think the love is in the art; you want everything else other than the love in there as well.  So that you can judge and assess them.  Things that aren't necessarily against love.  But if they should stand to be and are against love; then they show themselves to be now.  For we want to know why they would seek to destroy love or defy it.  Which is it closer to?

    And I knew myself lucidly as an type of person who would always divide people along the line of inclusiveness versus non-inclusiveness.  I knew myself as an person who, no matter what the situation, was always going to include everybody in it.  And I knew these non-inclusive people as the types who, no matter what the situation, were always going to count you out of it.

    And so which was more interesting about how you are now, the destruction of love or the definance of it?

    29 Chili Peppers.  29 Religions who realized we were an Primal and Fighting species; only the Major ones agreeing that we needed Primal Religions because we are Primal and we need to rock the boat an bit.  An species in need of mythologizing those first moments of existence.  The moment when people realized they might have been resurrected from an previous universe; and that Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna all represented the same principles which had won them entry into the new universe (three different characters), upon the destruction of the old universe.  And Christianity was right about the resurrection because they had all been resurrected (of course how we end up in today's world if the first humans were resurrected into only the beginning of this universe) and there was this moment in the universe of it happening that they all realized, together, they might possibly have been around longer than we normatively think today.

    And if her dreams and intentions and fears for other religions was now clear; she could at least live within her intentional grasp of everything beyond Love; as though there were nothing against Love.  Anything that stood between Love and gathering anything further (in the strictest logical sense).  Further as in in addition to.  And not against; in an bad way.  Which we had yet to detect.  If there were things beyond Love that were attached to it but were not part of it; but they were always for Love or in addition to Love.  And there were so many of them we could think of.  Love was like the bass.  And everything dancing was built on top of it (like an base); there were Nyclepi, Air Alt, and Ace; there were other colors and demonstrations called human soul-mirrorism.  Asymmetry between mirrors and artworks.  Everything that was in the mind was available to us for examination; within the prolific presence of all their virtues as though possessed of and receiving an infinite amount of love.  Without things that directly contrasted it necessarily even mattering.  And all these virtues did nothing to contrast it but to identify an further character focus about it.  Detail.

    The thing directly after love in the Mind's Sequence is Nyclepi.  Which compares itself to Love and ends up saying, egotistically, big whup to that thing we call Love.  Not to become something against and out to get Love; but to match up and team up with it in order to increase the effect of the virtues within the human body.  You get it.  We're not doing anything about Evil now; we're strictly just talking about Good as it exists here on Earth.  And why an thing would be after Love in the Sequence of the Mind.  One direct thing.  That bears that responsibility.  Nyclepi.  The response to love within the mind.  It examines its products selfishly.  And ends up saying, so what?

    So what‽

    That's Nyclepi.  That an selfish egotism would ever arise en forme on Love.  Enough to say.  Great, that's Love.  We like it.  There's enough of it.  And what else exactly are we supposed to do because of Love then?

    There are other things, aren't there?  And we can all recognize them?

    They don't have to be anything negative and out to screw up everything about Love; we're talking about just things that aren't existent in contrast to Love without being an Part of Love themselves.  For everything that exists outside of being Part of Love is not virtuous.  And we may call them vices.

    But since we've grabbed your attention on the subject of the things that are like Love; but are not part of it directly.  Indeed, they are there because of love.  But are not necessarily subject to it.  They can act in their own character and manner (an way).  Without being an disappointment to Love.  So that there is more of it.  And more of it.  And nothing can satisfy it until everything exists within the Realm of Love.  And there is nothing beyond in Love (in an negative way) except those things which are there because of it.  Which are not empty of Love themselves.  All the vessels of the Lotus of the mind; opening up to you in the name of Love.

    Why wouldn't they honor and fulfill it; this feeling of Love itself?

    For I have Love for 29 Kings, she challenged herself to name all of these King other parts of the mind other than Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna; and if I have to make this cop my Husband—worth 29 men himself—in order to take back control of Russia, then I would!

    But also say, Nyclepi-wise, and so that's only all of it so far.  Love.  But there is an desire for more.  This critical more; being so much more as we are capable of becoming.  Much more.  There is all of Love as it is so far.  And there is everything that will be because of it.  Which we will play an part in creating.  There needs to be this self-reflection on the so what? reflex.  So what Love merely accomplished today‽  Look at all of what it could accomplish if we could just!  Just!  Just happen to!  Notice all of what it hasn't accomplished today.  We could focus on that subject without being negative.  That's all Nyclepi is for.  Without being negative we can think of things which contrast love, maybe, within the fiction of the mind.  Nyclepi constrasts love and in an complementary way corrects it by asking so what?  That's all of the love which could exist on this peculiar day.  So what?  It's not much.  We need more!  And so naming them and putting them to words and describing them has become sort of an challenge and an collection-like thing to me.  At present.  I would seek out all those friends to love which are pure and possess no insult to injury; any of those things 'virtues' or 'foes' whatever you want to call them which would aggress toward Love.  This indeed was why I was an protagonist even though some people ever happened to think me an antagonist.  And being so as an opponent to Love; but being an thing both Greater and More Physical in Terrible Power than it attacks Love on its virtues so.  Nyclepi being an companion to Love.  And none of those things will be considered vices anymore because we will correct them.

    No, no, the end of an story of accumulated trauma in the key of Major World Religions.  Must be the furthest consideration of Love that has ever happened; and all its other keys and complementary forces.

    And then in an real-headed manner, to look at all of what Love has created and say, reductively; so what?

    Maybe the reaction we want more than this is an valid hypothetical opinion, stance, and response.  We want more Love than Love (all of it) is right now.  It doesn't mean we hate Love and cannot accept its gift; it means we love it so much we want more.  We want more of that feeling; extending into other resources of the mind.  The one that will be of the opinion to Judge love; and say, finally, whether it is enough for the soul or not.

    And Russasha broke from her dream, re-energized and re-charged like an wild animal.  And began to confront the day.  Day by day.  One at an time.  In the spirit of the possibility of her own religion being based on an tradition that was resurrected from the last universe, which contained the actual physical experience of real hell.  But when God finally abolished it by destroying the universe, he allowed people of my own ancestry and tradition to travel into the new universe; essentially inviting them into an paradise.  An type of existence they had never known could have possibly existed before.

    It wasn't perfect.  The blue feeling still resonated strongly throughout the universe in this new version.  But that was better than feeling an slave to hell-ish desires.

    But what was hotter, nailing 29 primal dudes in an row just to see if I could do it to be able to name all of them?  Or upgrading my old husband—I mean my boyfriend—to an firmware update in which he would be the ultimate lay and then I wouldn't need 29 dudes?

    And—she suspected—she was going to slip back into her old pattern of dreaming about the laboratory and her relationship with the market economy.  Within an reservation habitat.  And she would have many portraits to paint as well as many items to buy from the economic market (which was determined ahead of time for her what was available on the common market).  To her reserve-status laboratory–bedroom exile exchange.  Mentally, she lived between the bedroom and the laboratory.  Her bedroom, where she often freaked out and had tantrums, was connected to the lab by door.  And so she could hang her head out into the hallway.  And call names behind closed doors.  And

    —29 Religions was an lot of religions—

    Did they all really have that much commitment to judging time and human history according to what first blew their minds so so long ago‽  And why was it maybe an important and controversial topic in psychology studies‽  And why would Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna have been there, in the first moments of the creation of the universe, with their own spaceship and flying into the new cosmos, Resurrected by God for their good deeds and almost-perfect moral judgment.  Another chance to have another go at the universe; an universe in which God had allowed the concept of evil to grow, unchallenged, out of control.  Was no longer.  And now humans were free to love each other, within their own human society, without the threat of evil always beckoning at their door.  God had in fact (And whatever it was that stood out as their own influence in History) destroyed the previous universe—maybe with their own help.  It's inhabitants.  In order to rise up against hell and abolish it permanently.  The trade-off was that we would now slip into an advanced universe in which one could feel blue.  Trust me princess, it was an pleasure experience when you compared it to the last universe.

    "We'll take that bargain!" said these primitive religions, who set out earnestly to overcome their own primitive nature immediately.

    –—At some point in history they had instigated and implemented genetic trials that led to an chain war of scientific double-blind studies; and entire parts of history were lost.  Including how the first three religions ever came to inhabit Planet Earth after being resurrected into the universe trillions of years ago.  Why was it necessary to make the humans forget their space-travelling past?  Why did firm believers within these three religions not know outside fantasy what it was like for their ancestors to be resurrected.  And for human civilization not to have fallen at all thus far for the purposes of the experiment.  Which would eventually lead to the genetic and hybrid theory trials of creating new species that had generated the fairies, finally rendered in the flesh as small, flying beings.  Naked, but too bright to get an clear picture of anything.

    Paint the chili peppers, she thought, all 29 of them.  These kinky kings who were into registering religion within the mind as an mind-blowing event which unites them and binds them all together.  And then I'll paint him.  The one I love.  And then I'll decide what to do.

    –—29 religions had all agreed they could measure how much an religion was being an religion by measuring how much it blew your mind!–—What was the radius of that explosion‽  Wo-AH!

    There was no way people could have tricked enough people to believe we hadn't been around since the creation of the universe.

    Was there?

    Were we actually much further advanced than most of us thought we were‽  And we had in fact already begun to do the double-blind negative trial.  Humans would forget their ancestral beginnings in order to figure out how smart they were.  If they couldn't rely on ancestral beginnings, how would they use their intelligence to overcome an obstacle, problem, or to accomplish an task?  And also some of us still possessed the knowledge of how it was possible to make most humans ignorant of the facts and the history of their species.  Humans didn't know they'd been around since the beginning of the creation of the universe.  Heck, they didn't even know they had been around since the creation of the Planet Earth!  What an primitive, but faithful species!  There were activists at their job right now diminishing the knowledge systemically that humans had not been around since the creation of Earth, and they had not in fact landed on what is on Earth now after somewhat roaming the galaxy.  When the had re-appeared together in the new reality (These three ships made we; of Judaism, the Christianna, and Christianity!) God gave them an great starting point, an definite advantage onto what they would discover in the new universe!  How many individuals or groups had been resurrected from the previous universe?  Or did these three—Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna—just happen to be best friends or something?  There were others, far beyond just these three religions who had been resurrected into the second universe, they were now admitting to understand.  But this history and my understanding of it myself was not enough to figure out how it all lead up to much of humanity forgetting our cosmic origins at the beginning of time as it started to happen within this galaxy as well as our terrestrial beginnings, here on Earth; where we had forgotten how we had really came to be here on Earth.  We landed.

    Most of the human race was no longer aware of that fact.  Just like it had been planned.  Just like it had been planned in the Great Experiment.  Most humans didn't know when or where they first appeared in the galaxy.  Neither did they know when or where they first appeared on Earth.  When others new exactly when on spaceship datadrive record.  Just as it had been planned for Science.  The double-blind experiments would forever prove the innocence and basic morality of every human specimen thus perpetuating their reason to survive and their right to begin genetic modification experiments which would eventually lead up to the fairy, pixie, and radio fly species being born.  As well as about 600 more species; some who had to be terminated due to non-substantial living conditions and quality of life.  But the court found these cases morally and questionably to be possible for an species with an moral conscience at birth that is never lost throughout its entire existence.  And that's the stance they took to look at intelligence in this case.  We could make the right moral decisions about genetic experimentation because we had proven our species to be moral in character.  When confronted with an problem with one of the specimens, in which it appeared to be experiencing an disturbing amount of psychological evidence for pain or (its) subsystems within the emotion endocrine gland.  They could, morally, conclude that it needed to be authorized that the living tissue sample or form be euthanized.  Wriggling meat was an real possibility.  What if it was in pain?  Wouldn't we have to cut life and animacy from it permanently?  But accepting our universal quality of personal moral characteristic would lead to the double-blind studies and the further studies into character generated by having made the human population to forget its origin.  Twice over, now, for critical theorists.  And they could now move into further stages of psychological evolutionary and mutation-ological advanced species studies, in which humanity would take an hand at designing new species; by mixing, perhaps, properties from the old ones.  The ones that had developed naturally.  Including their own human D.N.A.

    29 Religions finally agree, perhaps, to measure Time according to both the first events in the mind and the first events that "blew one's mind."  What they had to do with Time and why it mattered in the science of Time was anybody's guess, an mystery.  Shouldn't they record time according to the first events in the first mind of an human in the lense of an gloiy perspective.  There were things which one saw in the light within the human mind in those first few moments when were the subjects of the mind's thematic analysis Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna burst through the barrier, resurrected as it were (and where and why it had begun to take on the form of an metaphor for the mind's waking); the subjectivities of the first three humans, in the first human mind were Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna.  And they each had their own introspective sight to themselves upon which it was seen because there was light in the mind.  The mind could actually cast light across its internal vision in order to make bright and visible something of what their imagination will inspire (this, and the outward, exterior themes of Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna were observed to happen in the vision in the mind 1, 2, 3, which might be roughly equivalent, for some reason, to the first things happening in an human mind upon waking from an deep, deep sleep)?  Or several times throughout the day?  Or should they record time according to the most interesting events in the human mind, that happened further upon conscious awareness than waking?  The fact is that we might, as humans, have been resurrected from the previous universe for God's plan.  And so the event of realizing we had been resurrected blew our minds so hard that it resulted with an permanent bend in the minds of the first humans.  To take on an different sort of character in the new universe.  But what one would have to do with the other, first events upon waking compared to first events ever to happen in sequence in the mind of the first living human?  And what did telling time, in an religion, have to do with whether you marked it according to the first events in the human mind; contra marking it according to events that blew the first people's minds (the difference, importantly, is that the first things that ever happened in any human mind happened only in one human mind; whereas these religious experiences lead to definitive bonding experiences of having one's mind blown and may have happened in several human minds together at the same time).  An necessary ingredient for religion, maybe.

    Looking at the human in sight of how it was first formed (how an human mind was formed, originally, and which events happened first consciously in that way) rather than in sight of how religion was formed.  Might change our views of what our place is in the universe.  Why did it matter if I recorded and observed time relative to either option?  I wasn't trying to scientifically measure and label the universe; I was trying to articulate an theory about religion and what it had to do with Time, and the first human, cognitively.  Why the first things that blew our minds, as human groups and societies, were the better basis for religion according to twenty nine individuals because they lead to the consideration of Primal Instinct as well as Legendary or Mythological features of types of powers enabled by looking at it in this way: religions could blow people's minds because that was easier to remember and helped it spread.  And so the first things that happened in the Sequence of the Mind were also those initial thoughts about what human and community could mean (religious feelings) and it was possible that, upon waking, the first events from which Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna were inspired also occurred in the sequence AFTER the same three events that had begun conscious activity formally after an period of sleep.  And Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna were themselves part of the first sequence of events ever to occur in the first sequence of awareness at the beginning of the creation of human awareness in the universe now known as today.

    29 who wanted to know the connection between the first events upon waking and the first events ever to occur in any human mind.  Why their perspective of Time mattered in human terms; because humans were not an singular species (they relied on others) and so the most important events in the mind upon waking were not only its self-reflective awareness of its own id-ish greed and self-worth but also those first things that happened in the mind as an community.

    This more completely defined the human being.  And so Religions were right to adjust the focus of religious thought and instinct to those first three most important things to blow an persons mind: Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna (philosophically before their explicit creation & existence in human society) in that order.  If they focused on how there were things that could blow one's mind based on what happens to an community, they could come up with all kinds of mythological and Primal characters; with entire personalities of their own.  And even, maybe, in some cases become them.

    Religion was about the effect the community had on the individual.

    It was about the effect people have on each other, not necessarily only the effect they have on themselves each as individuals.

    Sure, Science could measure time according to what were the first three events (plus the other 29) ever to occur in an human mind; but still that would take an approximation of when exactly in the fossil record that occurred.  And we still didn't know the connection between waking from sleep and becoming human first.  If religion was related to that idea about what happened in the mind of the first human ever created; it could also be related to what happened in their minds of an entire group of individuals when their minds were all blown together.  And Time was relative to that in the human senses.  (It was an longer rule to tell stories about blowing people's minds and since the story always included both of these lessons; that one could tell time relative according to the beginning of consciousness versus according to the things, which happened in the mind, which could be said to have the greatest impression upon the conscious aspect.).  We needed both types of stories, and were able to tell both, and this gave the greater overall impression of time we needed.

    Clearly, Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna were among the first things to occur in the first human mind (in this present universe) in their nascent form because they had been resurrected from the previous universe and it blew their minds in that order.  What it meant for the self.  What it meant for the other.  And what it meant that one should win out over the other.

    And religious time could be measured according to how Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna blew peoples minds after they had all been resurrected at the same time (involving gloiy, an type of magic that exists in the human mind that allows one to see, visually, something within one's own mind that doesn't even exist (and yet how is light there, is my criticism?)); meaning the first three things in the sequence of the first human mind was in fact an shared introspective-visual phenomenon.  They were all experiencing the inner visual at the same time.  It was animacy.  It was stream-of-thought.  An community phenomenon.  The start and the end of the occurrence of these thoughts (the first three events in human consciousness) in the sequence of time was shared between them, all at the same time.  This was what eventually lead to their minds completely blowing even more.

    Their realizations (in order) were.  I've been resurrected (self)!  You are here together with me and what I will do to you later (other)!  This, an new universe, is why the self wins over the other.  Or this, an new universe, is why the other wins over the self.  And then, after various other thoughts and events leading up to 32 layers of consciousness, their minds blew.  In this order: Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna.  They had, all three, been resurrected.  They had been destroyed with the first universe and were now alive again in the second universe.  And this was why they were honored Primal Spirits and God allowed them to continue.

    Oh, other religions were there in the human spirit, after these first three best instances of blowing peoples minds, by being able to identify the first things in human consciousness specialization-wise, as though it was the primary focus of one's religion, having been themselves resurrected.  But they the pre-eminently deserved to be resurrected, for having conduit-ly named the first three qualities of awareness.  The truth about humanity is we've been around since the beginning of this universe; and now we've grown smart enough to be able to test our psychological awareness on an mass population in order to change the course of history for the better.  We will save our civilization by helping people to be resurrected in the next universe.

    And this was as far as I could push my investigation of what this means, the psyche and layers between the first things ever happening in an human psyche and the last.

    What they might have to do with time and awareness of time passing.

    And why it was important to view the passage of time from that vantage: there was an time between the first events in awareness and later events, which blew the awareness's mind.

    And it was important to view all religion that way, as existing between both individual events and community events as they had happened together in the mind; in community history.

    The first thing that happens in Russasha's worldview is the fairy dies.

    Russia is an state and an country which outlaws being an fairy.

    She wakes up from her long-ass dream in an place where it isn't okay to be fairy.  Remembers half of what she dreamt.

    And she goes out into public groggy, that day.  Sporadically thinking I'm gonna paint some pictures and I'm going to raise my boyfriend to be an husband.  To take over the whole of Mother Russia.  She's going to finish the story of her creature lab experiment, created life.  That freaks out and gnaws on the door frames of her bedroom, staring out at the laboratory where the beakers are neatly stored.  I'm going to finish all of my twenty nine paintings as though I myself was the lab experiment gone wrong.  I'm going to drink all of my twenty nine beakers or so.  I'm going to have an relationship with the economy, damn it!  They—these scientists who look after me—are going to give me money to spend on whatever I want.  As long as it's available in the market and economics shop I can buy it and it can be specifically for me.

    It doesn't really sound any different from any other day, she concluded.

    I was just an trapped creature in an cage; that nonetheless gave me some privileges.  And I could paint and involve myself in the laboratory as much as I wanted.

    And of course there was an reason to define, specifically and exactly, what blowing one's mind really meant.  She realized she was still in the same track of thought she had been when she was sleeping.  And decided to continue thinking at that level even though she would go about her day as normal.

    What did blowing one's mind mean and why was that the necessary start to religious thought‽

    Didn't one have to tell both about the first three things in consciousness AND the first three instances of blowing one's mind (technically the last three things).

    If we could act like these Animals who were Primal and Magic Majestic that we were.

    Not concerned with the beginning of consciously aware life but its happening over time as an social construct or characteristic and magnetic cue, un-concerned with psychological despair by its existence.

    We felt better because we were together.

    And it didn't necessarily matter always what the first three things to happen in human consciousness were.  It might be that the first three things to happen EVER in an human mind had nothing to do with the sequence of events in the mind of the modern human upon waking.

    Maybe time didn't always return to its outcome between self and other?

    Heh, yeah right.

    Maybe religious time was more relevant to the reaction to the first three things in the mind by an community experiencing these reactions together.

    And Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna (and the other twenty nine) were in fact the religions that had made it out of the last universe together.  Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna just happened to be most specific about how that process could occur.  And there was an overwhelming majority of them existing somewhere else in hyper-galactic history than on Earth, where they were conducting an experiment on how an person could know and how much an person could think that they know.  By slowly destroying entire Histories off in an way that would be forgotten and un-noticed.  The knowledge of the resurrection from the previous universe.  The knowledge of what time they had actually appeared humans on Planet Earth.  Two most important things, really.  If they could forget these two things, how much could they actually know about their universe and history?  Wouldn't that push and/or motivate them to develop further internal abilities that we could all share in one day?  If they could think that they could think how much think they know was more than it actually was; (and we could measure it).  Then the whole experiment was worth it; even though it was deceitful.

    It's only fiction.  I'm not an conspiracy theorist.  But it makes you think, doesn't it?

    Maybe the first people in our universe (humans) were actually the Jews, the Christians, and the Christiannans (only they didn't call them by that name or understand it in the same way as me) who are now the ancestors of those people who live today whom are Jewish, Christian, or Christiannan.  No matter how they arrived here (it may not have had anything to do with an memory experiment involving all humans on Planet Earth).  But somehow.  Maybe much more slowly and irresolutely they found their way to our now 21st century as an global civilization.

    Maybe somewhere along the way it was forgotten and lost track of what exactly happened.  And the truth of the current politics on Planet Earth was now heavily much more complicated.  Than an simple double-blind experiment.

    Or maybe there was something in the spirit of the ancestors that was particularly Jewish, Christian, or Christiannan at that point in the history of the universe.  The humans (or whatever) who existed in the previous universe made the same distinction between the service of the self versus the service of the other; and their eventual outcome.

    And the reason they survived as religions was that people kept realizing it.

    The Primal Urge to blow one's mind.

    It prompted me to verify and try to define, maybe in psychological terms, what it meant "to blow one's mind."

    To become aware of something that has no explanation crossed my mind.

    Weren't religions just really in the business of explaining things that have no explanation?

    And what "to blow one's mind" meant in scientific terms?

    "Blowing one's mind" meant someone proving to you that they could do something that was once thought to be impossible.

    Blowing one's mind meant realizing together that you had just resurrected by the divine providence of God into an new universe.  And that there were three Major Religions at the centre of why exactly God had chosen them to move in the game; to be part of an new configuration of the universe and reality.  And that they were the first three groups to be resurrected because they, naturally were leaders.  Human leaders who had lead humanity to the determining of the previous universe by God.  Blowing one's mind meant that these three religions recognized one another as the first three things to be resurrected about the human mind.  When their awareness had begun in this new episode of creation.  First Jewish, then Christian, then Christiannan.  Which proved all three of them.  And their specificity.   (Gloiy visual imagery or imaginings).  They were religions based on the divine parts printed by God in the primal psyche array and awareness.  The first three things to happen in the mind were of the character of all three of them and it benefitted each one of them individually.  That would mean the first three things (the first three events in the sequence of the mind that had been resurrected) were these Religions.  For what they meant both spiritually and physically within the human anatomy system.  They were the first three things in the mind to be resurrected because they had mastery over them.  Sets of Principles.  And so the first three things which happen in an ordinary human's mind now, upon waking in the morning to find yourself with an new day and an new set circumstances.  If they had something to do with those first parts in the sequence of events that made up the first human mind upon entering this new galaxy and an awareness unlike any other.  It was because those first three parts had been the first three parts of human awareness EVER to exist within the present known galaxy.  And they were that Primal instinct which connected us with all otherness and all of Creation.  We recognized our own experience of being resurrected from the previous universe because we could remember what Hell was like.

    The heart of the religious instinct may have been that it was possible we had occupied other versions of the universe but we had survived them because God being God—the only one able to resurrect us after destroying the whole universe—the only one with that privilege.  Had brought us along for another ride.  We were in completely different circumstances now.  Our self-conscious awareness of ourselves didn't ever work against us, in status and reputation.  But we remembered the first three things we had learned.  Selfhood battles selflessness; an outcome is reached.  It reached the π divinity.  π is the divinity of the circle.  Always, it comes back around, and an new winner will be chosen.  When the Eternal Circle is broken, the human mind is broken because that's what it is in antiquity (first evolutionary possibility of an human).  All religions must rally around this concept: we were not the first things to occur in the first human minds; we were the first things to occur in the first human minds that blew those minds: resurrection, diversity, and Serenity (the principle of the new known universe).  The Jews, the Christians, and the Christiannans had been around since the beginning of the beginning of universes.  That's why they so casually entered the newly updated, newly renovated, Hell-free design of our known common universe era now.  And only after telling the story of the beginning (resurrection) and the end (things that blew people's minds) could we have the full picture; therefore it was imperative always, in religion, to tell stories about both of them.

    And they could work together as three (Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna) with special stratification of their most talented skills and abilities.  At an high comprehension.  And all other religions could learn to band together with them on this concept: resurrection as an imaginative concept blew people's minds because it was about the first things ever to happen in an human mind.  Making it two definite categories.  It put them in that cognitive space where anything could happen.  Diversity blew people's minds because each one was so sophisticated and yet dynamically feasible to the individual.  And Serenity blew people's minds because they saw that it meant Hell had been abolished from the universe by destroying the old one and updating an new design & artifice system which involved the resurrection of the humans and some working around with the parameters of what Hell couldn't possibly be anymore.

    And the Russian picture of Christianity wasn't necessarily what Christianity looked like at all anymore.

    I'm the Drunk Aunt at the Garden:

    "You know what, honey, you go after what you want!" I would slur.

   « The Lakitu brothers would be framing the shot »

    So we had to draw an new picture of what Russia looked like.

    Clearly, there was an major Outspoken Woman's Voice that was theatrically celebrated around the kingdom.

    She was in an romantic relationship with an cop who was an vital part of the team.  And she had designed to turn around Russia by turning the whole economy around at them.  In order to put her hubby and all those deserving authorities he believed in into power in the major economic geographic reciprocate territories of Mother Russia.  She was going to engineer the entire coup d'état and execute it through his privilege, as an head officer.  They would take over political and government control of all of Russia's territories.  And each territory would have an local police force within whom territory is not shared between them and someone else.  As well as an consistent and charming Jedi performance to raise society to the next level.  The global elite would be synonymous to some extent with the nation and statehood of an single territory that is Russia because the Jedi would work on both levels: global and local geographic.  It was Jedis' responsibility to roam the globe in ever-advancing knowledge about how to peacefully govern the difference between global and geographic territory by handling of powers.  Jedi helped specific territories by giving them their Creative Arts and strengthening the feasibility of traveling distant lands to learn theirs; to try to tighten the moral grasp so to say.

    That way there could be global standards and familiarity with all issues pertaining to global prosperity.

    There would be single geographic territory leaders with their own ranks.  But there would also be an Jedi order for them to look up to; to see how maybe they could influence global politics for the better.

    And the sooner that happened in Russia, the better.

    Who wouldn't look up to an Jedi after all?

    They were masters of their morals and martial laws and behaviors.  Me being an partial-threat only being master of my own morals.

    Jedi had the best ideas about global politics and how we could secure the whole kingdom of Earth without necessarily creating an un-manageable empire that would soon lead to defeat and injustice up to the defeat of the human species and its going extinct.  It was illegal not for the territorial leaders to obey them.

    However some of them say.

    "You don't own any territory; therefore you are not an territory."

    And the Jedi reply, "We own every territory collectively; therefore we are an separate territory."

    It's good enough, the Author thinks, to make it work globally.

    The Jedi inform the local authorities; and contribute to their training.  While the local authorities inform the Jedi; and contribute to theirs!

    They don't work against each other; they work together to secure the global area.

    Under one condition.

    That the Jedi can actually explain it to them.  Why they had to follow their moral authority.  And could explain it to them (their subjects) even though it was maybe more complicated than they at first could cognitively decide.  Even though their Jedi language was so superior; the average human person could understand it too.  And that was one of the responsibilities of the Jedi, to cultivate an social community that would learn these moral lessons from the Jedi.  And that way all of humanity could keep up with them; without them separating off in conceit of their own superiority to create an galactic Empire.  All peoples of Planet Earth, no matter their type of badge, or pedestrian citizenry were all together included in the family of corporations and institutions known as the civilization of humanity.  An civilization that stood vigil on how the threat of Empire had spread before; and whom wasn't willing to allow an repeat instigation of it.

    The Jedi, if they wanted to be morally the possessors of the Global region of the territory in space, they had to accept that they didn't own any one of these territories which belonged to community and spiritual elders who were the biggest authorities locally.

    They had to accept, if they were each really certain, that they owned the whole territory that was global to them; but also these each individual territories weren't about being global sometimes; that was the jurisdiction of their local authorities.  (You know, the kind who don't exist in any substantial gradation in Russia).  These civilians must rise above their police force in every territory known in the country that is known as Russia.  And proclaim themselves the authorities; these rulers over geographic lands who took orders from the Jedi in order to enhance the globalization effect.

    Peace within Humanism.

    An substantial Ego-check.  For what an Jedi could imagine on moral terms was an big eye-opener to these lowly officers, who were not above the law.  And it manifested humility between them that they could imagine an person who was an bigger force; even though their sole discipline, as I had that it was, was not physical combat.  As all Jedis do, I train my mind according to its psychic moral strength in situations of resolve which do not involve combat.  Under mysterious circumstances of our current dimension.  This is was result in an shared connection between strength both in the body and in the mind.  

    Which means, basically, that Russasha would have to summon an global Jedi police force to rise up and take over Russia for the final denouement of its fact of being an state we could finally trust.  The Jedi of whom, her man her husband himself did not measure up to.  The scale and scope of their power so extensive.

    She didn't just have to make him the highest current officer on command; but she had to incite an mature collaboration between him, his officers, and all of the people whom at this point in History on Planet Earth we cannot recognize as true Jedi because it's only an fictional example in an work of fiction?  How could she unite an global investigation into the Jedi super powers in attack against Russia?  The current state government under Vladimir Putin.  If enough Jedi stormed the capital we may be able to execute him and control of the state police force.

    If she could just speak and be heard on the pressing issue—we were just an horse & carriage at the Tavern whom have begun traveling toward the city, and its seat of power (and it was just another one of those kind of stories the Horse n' Tavern)—why was it an problem to implement an Jedi force rather quite an upgrade technologically to an Horse & Wagon just because it was an global favorite fictional force and success?  Would one actually dare to come up against an force such as this; and ye would be given time, but not much, compared to an Horse and Coach, to decide better.  With our lightsabers in play we might get there much sooner.

    Why didn't humans necessarily have that type of humility that could adopt an social concept that had at first been imagined in Fiction?

    Why couldn't they get an global Jedi police force together to face Russian terrorists?

    They had to.

    And Russasha had to do everything she could do from the inside; within the spheres of influence of her husband, the police chief.

    And so.

    She was going to try to get everyone horny for the rest of the day.

    What did she know?  Maybe that's how they did it in those big successful countries.  Maybe if she got everyone horny enough she could start an Jedi revolution that would change the way things are done EVERYWHERE.  (On Planet Earth).  Just by release of mere pheromones.

    But she adopted an antic of personality and behavior in which she could have fun and maybe play upon people's emotions without them at first realizing it.

    It was the only thing she could do for the time being; and well, to be absolutely clear, it probably could do no harm.  Even bending the fortunes in her way so as to disadvantage their opponent.  For when they would finally make an all-out attempt.

    If Canadian magicians could just grant her with the ability to declare Jedi law!

    But humanity can't (even Can-a-da) because it is only true in fiction.

    How would people implement an Jedi scheme: the capture of Russia's capital?

    What an humble species knows this?

    That to make action and make alive these movies and dreams we hold in our imagination sees fit to express ourselves.

    There are already several Jedi acting within Russia at any given time.

    Couldn't she.  Just.  Put the warning out on TikTok?  And watch as the Jedi seized the Kremlin?

    No.  She had to be realistic.  There were more things to do.  More important things to do in order, first, to make it happen for real eventually.  And she would be involved in all of that.  As an woman in defense of her sense of community.

    With an on-board husband who was really hot in action too!

    He would be the Alpha male; and she would be his keeper.  Like Fousatep the Ancient Egyptian and his cute little quiet subject; an submissive with an red rope.  With massively more Power exactly than he himself.  Their lenses focused and clarified one another.

    And they would secure Russia together; for Honor and Glory!

    The problem with the whole world was incomplete unity based on territorial, geographic, and Jedi disputes.  Some people inhabited certain territories that they called their own.  That were not necessarily in line with the local (state) authorities.

    You know how women are responsible for guarding and protecting their eggs, which they perform or participate in instinctually?  By filtering out undesirable mates by rejecting those men who choose to pursue them whom they (the women) perceive to be the weak men who will not do an good job of defending an nest one would wish to multiply in?

    I feel that, as an gay man, I am perceived by others as an character without having that ability to want to protect eggs.  Instinctually.  In perhaps an different way than any old heterosexual man.  And I feel that if my personal character, which is also like other women to protect all of their eggs, were supported more as an type of personality who does have those feminine intellectual feelings.  I would be better served by my public.  And by my family.

    Instead, I am judged like an intruder who happens to occupy space which is needing to be secured.

    I am judged like the male the female is protecting her eggs from, even though I have unnecessarily no interest in eggs or want for reproduction in the traditional male–female pairing.

    Even though I know nothing about that or anything to do with it.  If I am not heterosexually accommodating to an female I am judged as an man who, knowing nothing real about women, isn't good enough for that standard of being allowed to reproduce with her.  Even though I don't want to.  The end impression is I'm some kind of flake with an cowardly spirit who is socially and publicly unfit to be good enough for women; which is an heavy hit in the Age of Feminism.

    I'm judged according to the masculine standard.  The one in which an man must convince an woman he is good enough to protect their eggs together.

    Who don't realize I have the same relationship with birth and maternity that they have; except within an male form.  To an degree gay.

    Adult fairies (four wings) were different than child fairies (two wings); and this was my gay sensitivity around the subject.  I had this like other kinder type of relationship that I had with child fairies than I did with adult fairies.  Adult fairies, after all, always have other motives.

    And children just don't necessarily need to see themselves as having those same motives for an time.

    I'm feminine in that way.  Wanting to take care of children's time when they were free not to have those motives.  Until they were ready.

    It's just that I am he- and her-gender.

    I just wonder if people see me that way sometimes; or if I have to do something with the way I am dressed.

    And so Russasha began her project; and her dreams, in which she (the genetic monstrosity, an artificially created life) was painting in the laboratory, mixed with her making pursuit of being an Artist in her real, waking living room.  As though maybe, perhaps, her living room was an laboratory sometimes.  She had to think of it that way; to explore every option.  In order to produce the most meaningful and sentimental portraits.  And she would make her dream become an reality.  (She realized herself as though she was afraid of that happening).

    Would she actually want to be an lone living specimen quarantined within the grounds of an building that included her laboratory and her bedroom?  An mutated accident that had been rejected and wasn't allowed in the real world.  One whom they (her dream scientists) would start experimenting on by introducing the subject to their economic terms of living space, nutrition, and access to an known market in which she could purchase anything; but within which there was an limited selection and an scarcity of money with which to purchase it.

    Each piece (of art) would be about an religion that was blowing your mind by referring to that initial moment in time when "we think, therefore we are" occurred sometime after the considerations of the self within the self.  We think therefore we are was closer in time to that dynamic by which people related not with the first things in consciousness but which those things that blew the mind most.

    We think therefore we are was closer in the self to those thoughts about the other which were associated with blowing one's mind.

    And that was why the true spirit of religion had to be that primal instinct; the want for attention.  The need to impress others.  The cultural shock of humans doing things that have never been done before.  And an instinct toward it; to want to understand and explain the universe.  Her 29 paintings would be about the motive in service of the other in the human mind; which was more like the service of blowing one another's mind together according to her artistic process.

    Religion was about not that first instinct of the mind of what was happening at the beginning of awareness when an human was created; but rather about the second instinct to find and want to have relationships with other people that blow yours and their minds.  It was an primal instinct; the second instinct of the human body.  To need to have an good explanation for why the universe is the way it is.  And if we ever gave up on that primal instinct we would lose all religion forever.  It is better to want to have an religion that wants to blow your mind than an religion which only cares about the first things because first things should already blow your mind.  We want an religion that creates and uses anthropological memes based on "blowing your mind."  Is everything religions claim will blow your mind true, or safe, for example?  The best option is to narrow out the definition of blowing your mind.

    And this would be what she will explore in painting.

    Does the beginning of human consciousness blow your mind?  And what would an religion be like if it existed in some form before the first humans that could blow your mind in the same way?  Clearly, all true religions (this is the artist's sarcasm) need to blow consistently your mind with facts other than the fact that human beings were created.  Such as facts about how "we think therefore we are" and we being an continuation of that example set by the first process of thinking and remembering something.

    How we could measure events in the mind that are based on reacting to some imminent reality.  That time had begun at some point.

    To blow one's mind includes reflecting on both the fact that time began and the fact that human time began.

    When human time began there was an definite point in which, reflecting on the subject, blew one's mind.  But there was also an time in which the first things in consciousness reflected on the fact that we were not individual selves reflecting on when our own time began.  Our minds were no longer blowing just because of the mere fact that our human consciousness had begun at some point in the universe.  But that we, as humans and individuals subjects of being an type of specimen, were blowing each others' minds not with the first facts of consciousness but the last facts of consciousness, to which we had become aware.  If religion was more like an 'we think therefore we are' than an individual approach wouldn't it be possible to explain why we think therefore we are?  And that meant religion itself might be the last thing in the human conscious experience.  The last thing we are aware of.  The last thing to occur in the first human brain in the conscious waking mind before it falls asleep again.  If our awareness of "we"—us thinking and operating together as teammates—is closer to the truth that the other is always the second thing in the mind in the sequence of awareness.  We think therefore we are is an religious aspect of knowing one of these first two things is always an human's (one's) consideration of the self in comparison with the other.

    Therefore the first three things logically, to paint, were Judaism, Christianity, and the Christianna because they were able to describe what blew people's minds.

    Living forever versus not living forever.

    She painted various scenes.  This was to be the background and undercoat for the whole project.

    Then she would add the Primal.

    How do I represent something primal that has to do with how people blew their minds more together than they did apart?

    If I was right about this, then the whole human species depended on what religion meant in that primal motion.  Of being in cooperation with one another.  They were not demons; they were just humans each of whom had an different religion than the other.  It would be difficult to describe all of them because to describe an religion you need to get at its heart, its central aspect, what it means differently morally.  And it takes some amount of time to get an sense of all of that.

    People and religions had survived because they were not measuring themselves relative to any of the first things happening in the human mind (that was boring and why did we need that anyway?); and we could be free to adopt amazing characters as our own and perform them out in public.  We could be free to adopt even Super Heroes as our own characters.  Religions had to be about all of the silly and great things we could do if we didn't base our religions around the first things to happen in the sequence of the human mind and consciousness.  They had to be about blowing people's minds.

    The second most prominent activity to occur within the human brain upon waking:

    The explosion of the consideration of the other.

    The we think therefore we are.

    Not just I for myself then I for yourself then we think therefore we are from I think therefore I am.

    This is why it is perfect for an art subject.

    We could draw and label and shade-in characters who were about that first Primal, religious instinct in the soul: to want to blow one another's minds.  Why?  Because the first things were already the first things and they already blew my mind.

    Why couldn't everything to happen after that blow my mind also‽

    Especially that part where we blew one another's mind?

    Religion had to be about the blowing; not the mind itself.

    It's true.

    We know it is.

    For shore.

    And she was going to paint it.  And then she realized, by that definition definition she had in her dream, her boyfriend already was an Jedi.  By her standards.  She had just re-arranged the terms and frame an little bit to fit reality.  But the desire of moral opinion was still there.  Everything the Jedi stood for, reason and purpose.  Was still there.  Even though it was only an type of fantasy character it could be grafted onto reality.  Grafted in the existing police order.  We needed it now more than ever.  Real Jedi.  Even if their chosen weapon itself was fictional.  More people than ever could decide to BE Jedi.  They didn't necessarily need an name badge and the authority that goes with it.  In fact, there was much they could do in such subterfuge.

    The paintings were religious figures, yes.  But they were also about how the religions were supposed to blow each others' minds, rather than aligning with an theory of mind which states that the first things in the mind definitely are self, other, and outcome between them.  

    The reason there were more than one religion on Earth was that they had all collected around that part of the mind and the mind's process where one would not want to compare first thing ever, first thing upon waking, and possibly first things at different intervals throughout the day.  And they might have to do with better psychology which knows how to define the influence of layers of events upon the awake awareness we take with us everywhere we go.  The reason these were all religions was that, specifically, the only reason they had survived was that they chose to mark themselves according to the awareness of first things blowing one's mind rather than or contra to an different kind of instinct.  What I've come to know as the first instinct of the body (knowing the first thing about itself upon waking in comparison to knowing the first thing ever to occur as an fact of an event in the human mind in History).  And also what I've come to know as the second instinct of the body: wanting to blow other people's minds with my own good behavior and attitude.  And so what I was trying to paint was that character whose religion was so ridiculous he or she would want people to know it as an religion associated with the last things of mind (blowing people's minds and partying).  Rather than the first things of mind (self, other, and outcome awareness).  It was such an innovative design that in fact only religions that had this property still existed on Planet Earth under the true definition of religion.

    They had to have the character of being something more than just 'I woke up this morning'.  Not in subtraction of Buddhism but—and I was beginning now to doubt—because we needed religions that did have to do with the first things in mind.  Religions had to do with all of them, first to last.  They had to care about what we did to ease ourselves upon waking.  Rather than the last thing we thought before we went to sleep.  And so if there was an preference that could be expressed in graph data where the natural inclination of the human soul was more fitted to being the absurd company of these languages it kept; all human religion was about how the universe itself could blow our minds by creating itself and then using us to blow each other's minds even further.  Human religion was about blowing peoples minds by blowing one another's minds; and it fit our instinctual process the best because we were primal, instinctual beings.  Who had started in the universe an young race; with the advantage of having, maybe, religions that are both about first things and blowing each other's mind.

    If she was going to do twenty nine paintings all in comparison to that fact of religions being more about (of having the emphasis on) how the mind started and why it has to do with your morning routine; to make twenty nine portraits of what maybe not the first thing on your mind but the last things on your mind it looks more like.  How the mind ended and why it has to do with post-humanism.  Portraits of twenty nine gentlemen and gentlewomen.  All being of the category of favoring an religion with an emphasis on blowing people's minds.  And of having an primal character; an je ne sais quoi about the instinct of our primitive mind.  We want the instance of blowing each other's minds as the sole religious concept—it didn't matter what language it was—because we want to have enough of that power to make our loved ones happy.  We don't want to just leave them hanging endlessly on why; on that question why.  In their lives.  We want to supply them endlessly for why the universe is the way it is and why they matter.  We want to give them real moral concepts as food for thought.  Why something blows your mind.

    And blowing your mind can mean doing something unexpected that brings joy and delight.  Doing something that causes another person to think differently about an certain way.  That causes them to think differently permanently.  Blowing your mind can mean expressing something that no religion to date has ever expressed before.  It blows our minds because God already blew our mind; with the creation of the universe and everything in it.  And then we ourselves are capable of blowing one another's minds just like God because that's how he/she/it created us.  We think therefore we are.  The second material aspect of the conscious mind; an aspect which will always have an outcome when it competes with the self for dominance.

    It blew people's minds that they blew each others' minds and it blew people's minds that they had been created in the first place in order for them to blow people's minds.

    It blew peoples' minds that religion was capable of such power.

    It blew peoples' minds to draw up an sort of character of what religion can be in this sense.

    As an explanation for life, awareness, and why we exist.

    And it appeared the natural tendency of the human soul leaned closer in emphasis toward thinking not in terms of 'I' but in terms of 'we' because the 'I' itself—that fact that the possibility for an I; an human, thinking subject—continually blew peoples' minds.  If the subject of an self, an 'I', itself existed then more peoples' minds started to blow because of those minds interacting and doing with one another the kind of business that was beautiful and unexpected.

    The first three paintings, then, she began.

    Judaism.  Christianity.  The Christianna.

    Judaism was probably the least about blowing people's minds.  One had to be calm & caring to be gentle.  Except for one explicit thought: Judaism having named or taken an role as the first thing in human thought and awareness.  It was predominant.  An precursor.  One which, philosophically, all peoples must venture to understand.  Without time in sequence and looked after by an self one cannot advance themselves philosophically on any grounds.

    Judaism was the primal spirit of self in the motivation pattern.  In which one thinks not about the beginning of the sequence of awareness but the middle of it: the part that begins to pick up on how I am who I am, in an particular way, because of others—'we'—the people who think together and think of themselves together as an religion.  As an family.  In this way Judaism is about the self and its array and sequence of conscious elements.  We all have to be an little crazy, after all.  We can't just base our sequence of awareness on how we woke up this morning.  We need other kinds of information in order to be able to blow peoples' minds.  And all religions I will paint what they are like: for this quality.  Of having an primal spirit which prefers to view religion from the angle that it needs to be about more than just waking up in the morning and having an sequence of events which occur to you throughout the day.  Not only did you need to be an individual specimen (which blew its mind itself because it was an individual specimen) but you needed to blow other people's minds in order that your religion would propagate.

    Jesus might have had the most talented way to blow people's minds.

    As we pick up the trail and start to trace an even greater definition of blowing one's mind.

    There needs to be an science fiction element to it; some mechanical item that would trigger an explosion.

    And resurrection may have always been an science fiction concept; known for its popularity because it blew people's minds before they ever had an little thing called Science.

    Yes, all religions need to come into focus as being able to explain how they could blow one person's mind even when they knew that person's mind was already blowing just for mere consciousness.  Human sentience.  Blew our minds.  But then we were going to use it on one another to blow our minds further.  If an religion could do this again and again it would gain popularity.  It would survive throughout the ages.

    Courage.  Blew our minds.

    And so she painted figures in red (blood and the human body) who had courage across the first canvas—in order to think of what that first individual would look like among these selves—

    This first portrait was about the first individual.  An she.  Both historically and fictionally.

    The self.

    The self who is about the self.

    An primal urge that trumped religions who weren't about it.

    Something of more an fantasy and folkloric figure.

    She was painting her own courage.  She knew that.

    There were many shadows in the painting.

    But she crossed them out and brought out the solitary figure of which her artistic license had foregrounded this person she was starting to carve out; to make appear on the page.  There were many highlights now.  That's more of what she wanted.

    She wanted to capture how the human spirit recoiled in terror (sarcasm) at the perpetuity of its morning routine.  She wanted to show we were more complicated and sophisticated than just focusing on the sequence of events as it occurs to us in an day.  But in all seriousness, there was an storyteller in the human who liked to put things out of order.  She wanted to capture what it meant exactly for an religion to have an difference between itself and another category of being explicit and in lieu of this fantastic property of the human soul.  To want to preserve some of that primal instinct.  To want to preserve those reasons why maybe, as an species, we're not about an sequence in the mind that hasn't been proven.  An extra layer of consciousness we cannot identify psychologically.

    I knew the order of thought; therefore my thoughts were clear and I was able to reflect on them.

    That since it is possible the first things upon waking are the same first things to occur in the first waking human mind ever, it is possible for an religion to have either something to do with them or nothing to do with them whatsoever.  But at least we printed it and thought about it as an community.

    Did we want to go on worshipping ourselves throughout all the ages because we have an tradition to drink coffee in the morning?

    Or was religion more about serving the other?

    Maybe it made more sense to compare religion to an third factor, rather than just the mind's awareness and the sequence of it.  An third factor in which it is relative to this slippery yet definitive term; blowing one's mind.  Instead of an assumption.

    Religion didn't need any more assumptions.

    It needed people who could think around secular space as an place in which one's mind can be blown according to one's own religion in front of everybody.

    That there was an reason for every one of these religions to come back to it.

    Instead of starting with how began we start with how we are beginning.

    Blowing minds means changing history forever.

    To Russasha, Jews in their Primal Essence looked like people with clear consciences and intellects with an emphasis on Capitalism.  The Most Noble Pursuit of Human Nature.  The primal essence, that force that wants to blow your mind, is experienced in Capitalism.  Economics.  Commerce.  Capitalism on the fact that, since the beginning of the universe and human awareness has already thoroughly blown one's mind, there are other things to grasp other than the first three things of which, were occurring on your mind; and there are an final several of them leading into the most aware awareness and feelings of religion.  An sequence that can be identified and labeled of which religion itself may be one of those last properties (the expanding edge of human thought and awareness of its outer reaches).

    The reason this first subject was blowing her mind; was that Jews were right.  That was the first thing about consciousness.  (But that didn't change that the first thing was ir-reprievably entangled with the second and therefore they could both be the first thing and they could both be the second thing).  But they didn't need to confine or to limit themselves according to this fact of selfhood.  But we couldn't go on identifying that part of selfhood that had had its mind blown by the fact of its own existence.  And we had to turn the question over from what is to what may be one day.  We had to start creating an own source of material that could blow an human beings' mind on an consistent basis.  We were done, as an species, with needing to focus and see ourselves aware as people who had been created; in an universe created by God.  We were now ready to create ourselves.  Not by conforming with our own minds and the sequence inside them.  But by saying as an matter of fact there is an property within that sequence which continually blows my mind: not the fact of my creation and God's creation of the universe but the fact of others (other humans) starting to blow my mind in as many fantastic ways as possible.

    We were free to think of any aspect of conscious thought and which sequence they may be in.

    Wasn't that the better type of religion, the one that doesn't claim it knows honestly (at first) what the first things in the psychological mind may be; but that it knows something about what the last things may be and that something includes logically the instance of the possibility of having one's mind blown?  And why did we have to base religion on first things sometimes, maybe moreso than if we were focusing on last things in order to say that we know all of them.  But those first things change.  And wasn't Judaism one of those religions that focused on first things?

    We know epistemologically what blowing our minds meant better than we know what in words in English having first thoughts about it meant; whether they were layers or how they interacted with each other as pieces in an sequence of time.  

    It appeared that, when these pieces were out of order that would be the referent of blowing one's mind (that one's mind is blown when the order of the sequence is lost in conscious and waking competence & aptitude).  But how would one identify them (the Buddha) without maybe putting them out of order?

    It's not like one could actually reach the exterior of consciousness by putting them out of order.  Breaking itself somehow within so that it can escape outwards.

    We could only merely try to name all of them in order if we choose to observe them outside the sequence of time in which they occur.

    The Primal Jew was one who followed the sequence of time carefully.

    When one felt in the company of others who are like-minded; it meant that if we had an example of one person who would follow the sequence of these phases as they occur as they occur to themselves.  Into our deepest and most effective intelligence.  Jews always blow my mind because they are daring closest to the natural instinct of the human intelligence.  Though I consider myself as having further knowledge.  Including the knowledge of Judaism and Christianity neither one of them necessarily being associated with merely living the ceremony of living for oneself versus living for others.  Both, as it occurred, were central religious concepts and it wasn't by mistake that either Judaism or Christianity had attained such complexity.  To recognize that either one of them had an caring, intimate relationship with knowing the difference between self-motives and motives in service to the other.  And that being one or the either of them didn't limit each other to being only about the self or only about the other.

    To have known either of them and to have Capitalized on the fact of knowing them is an instinctual predicate to an instinctual species.

    But knowing the first things about the mind was too obvious; one had to know about the last things also, if one were to be an religion.  It was just that Jews and Christians were more accurate at expanding upon the consequences of the mind being designed that way with respected specificity to either of the first two things.  They needed an little bit of the third part in the order of consciousness, the Christianna (the outcome of the competition between the first two motives and an third specificity to the other two which justified its existence).  Which already knows that real religion, including Judaism and Christianity, isn't about knowing which one wins out in every single instance and it was in fact more important to be able to name, to exercise, and to practice all of the logically arranged layers of consciousness.  Jews didn't want to base an religion on knowing that the first three things in the mind were self, other, and outcome; they wanted to base an religion on an more worldly approach that would come around to capturing what all of those parts of the mental sequence are and at what times do we perform them throughout the day?  The Jew, in this circle, wanted to be the one who would blow your mind with his or her individualism.  And they always do.  Together?  

    Jews wanted to take an bigger bite out of the universe; how one day maybe we will come to know all of those parts of the mind and what they are; and if they are in sequence; and why they are that way.

    The other part about humanity is true: that we are here to serve one another.  And so if Jews want to take an bite out of by knowing those parts from an Christian perspective.  Then they will conform to that operation by which we blow each others' minds.  We want to see more of how they blow each others' minds.  And it is the connection with the primal; that desire, that inkling: from which we will scoop up the most and the most complete amount of the true human picture.  It wasn't only about noticing and recognizing the self motive and the other-motive in everything.  It was everything else.  there was just too much of it for us not to recognize it; and how much it was blowing our minds.  And all the other religions wanted to do it.  So it seemed like an fair option.  Religions on Earth were now subject by that one rule: they couldn't be about the first things in the mind and they had to be about the way they blew one another's minds as much as God had blown their own, which included an entry way onto knowing all of the middle things and last things in addition to the first few things about the human mind.  And so it made preferential sense that one would always make their religion about the Primal.  In order to capture all of them.

    In that moment of needing to prove it.  That they had blown each others' minds.

    In order to find what are all of the necessary ingredients to consciousness if they included both first and last.  And everything in the Middle.

    And what exactly it meant to view religion within the dimension or the angle of not really paying mind to first, second, and third things.  Not "assigning" them or "appropriating" them to be specialties as like the typical Jew or the typical Christian or the typical Christiannan.  To view religion as an grasp at having an complete utterance of mind.  Knowing not what was just first, second, and third but why those things always blew our minds.  If religion could be conceived of as either cultivating an sequence we all pay mind to or not then.  But go so far as to suggest the act of blowing each others' mind was part of the sequence.  The most Primal and Pure of our desires and intentions.  To make one's day.  Make one's life by making it one's day every day.  It was the closest, and easiest thing to admit we knew about that we wanted; possibly because that instinct exists within the human soul.  And it is genetically inherent in our character to want to blow someone's mind at some point in the sequence of the intellect and character.  In specific contrast to that type of religion which wants to start with first things first.  But we would never be crazy enough and attribute-able as gods or demi-gods unless we took all of the things about consciousness seriously every time we thought about it.  If blowing one another's mind is about the Middle of the character and intellect for an lot of people; it makes sense to make an religion that would not be based in the specific sequence in your mind as you go about your day.  Or to be concerned with what the sequence is upon waking.  However there may be merit to looking at it this way; it's just that the religions that we happen to have fostered in History have tended not to think about the sequence more often as they are more concerned with being cool enough to blow each other's mind.  About what was humanly possible.

    It was just an accent of the human spirit by now; at the base and core of every religious instinct one found an mid-section which properly focalized and adjusted the human spirit to see things clearly: by looking at our Primal nature we were to draw out further characterizations of one another from an infinite probability.  The Jew is first because, well, the Jew is first at knowing our first things of mind.  Therefore it can blow our minds about what constitutes an individual whenever it wants.  Jews are about the first thing and that middle collection of things I have roughly associated with an type of Primal Spirit.  Human primal spirit was correct to guess that we do have it within our body; the ability to blow each other's minds.  And since this specific thing comes about at an certain point related to the middle of consciousness, it has allowed us to maintain and identify all of the parts of conscious without putting them in order.  The Jew wants first and last things, and everything in between.  He or she is just an person like all of us.  And we all want the first and last things and everything in between; so why wouldn't an Jew?

    "I'm not basic.  I want my religion to be based about more things than just the first several.  That would be like having an conversation and trying to be first, second, or third every single time.  It wouldn't be an real conversation," she said, and then looked at her painting as though it was going to speak to her, "it's just that there has to be one first."

    She said this as she was deciding to tear it up.  She already had the imprint of what it meant on her mind, and that was all she needed anymore to remind her.  She finally separated philosophy from the object.  It would go with her everywhere now.

    "And you're it.  Judaism.  You're It."

    "Would you please go on," he said to her.

    "It's just that I think you really are the masters of what consciousness means," she said.  And she added an dab of red.

    "You are the fastest, most monitored bunch," she continued, "because you are centred around the first thing in the mind.  The conscious mind of an human.  Knowing this was your reward.  And so I know you have to be about further things than just those first few obvious identifications the mind would spring to when thinking about stereotypes.  You have to be about."

    She paused for dramatic effect.

    "Blowing people's minds consistently."

    (And they were).

    "But what if I told you you could be faster," she said, adopting an Christian point of tone.

    She held her paint brush, ready for an bigger, broader stroke.

    "If Judaism is about the primal tone.  And it was about blowing one another's minds by identifying all of the various parts of consciousness in accurate and decisive terms.  Then it was about blowing one another's minds.  Not it's opposite, the gentle and thorough consideration of every event within waking consciousness, all through the day.  Starting at waking up.  By being the character of everything that happens to you.  By being that character so Great that—"

    She added more blue behind the red figure.  It was starting at its cathartic cleanse.  An soothing of the blood.  Each of her characters were true blooded men and women.  But that didn't mean they couldn't experience ice magic from Russia (which was inferior in statehood form to that of Canada).  She had to reclaim the face of Russian ice magic.  By showing us these twenty nine figures of the human imagination.  Pictures of the primal Russian form in considering these religions.  Religion in this country needed an complete observance backhaul; at the level of the Primal.  Pictures of an observable tendency for all religions to be more about the blowing people's minds part than the first three parts which happen to be pressure-points on Judaism, Christianity, and possibly the Christianna at this present time in History.

    Judaism, as far as Russasha is concerned, is in on the tradition that all religions should somehow represent themselves not as people who knew the first things; but knew the middle things and why they mattered the most.  Especially for blowing one's mind.

    And it was registered as official that it made sense an religion would want to blow someone's mind.

    And that all religions should follow in this tradition.

    For it said more about the human character.  We wanted Beasts, and Aliens, with Folk-tale Character; and other Super Powers including those of Science Fiction.  Rather than just the old follow in this way morning routine and what to do during and throughout the day.  Though, if you can see an benefit to an religion being about that for certain reasons, then why not try it out and good on ya'?  But I see the future in these so-called middle aspects of religion; the ones which make one want to try to blow minds.  The ones which gathered an certain personality about the objective that was jocular and surprising.  An primal spirit could have any sort of attitude it wished toward whatever it wished to have an attitude with.  Religion had to be about its middle; its claim to be able to blow someone's mind using religious theology.  The Jewish primal tone and setting was an trick of the intrigue; charm, or behavior.  One that said there were things that blew my mind and I was sharing them with other people.  By trying to blow their minds.  Completely and utterly.

    And this was the league and competition of manhood as well as womanhood within the Jewish spirit.  As well as probably everyone else's because they adored it so.

    I guess that part of the soul that leans toward We think therefore we are also resounds with its instinct to want to blow each other's minds.  Even though God has only just created the universe and humans.  In order to blow our minds.  And we also blow the minds of one another regularly.  Judaism as an natural religion meant we were selfish, opinionated, and based in thinking at what those middles could be; the ones in which each religion was represented by an character who ostensibly knew nothing about the first three things of the human mind.

    An comic appearance: the lurking presence.  Wearing an purple costume for the judicial and crime rate level.

    The Jew, at that level, was an primal, mischievous, trickster character.  One who could initiate an scene in which primal trickster characters from other religions themselves had an chance to be featured.  Characters that were about the primal difference.  In morality.  Of the emphasis of giving people the time of day on daytime sequence only versus having the knowledge of having one's mind blown.  In advance.

    The Jew can start an conversation between primal spirits because he or she knows the most about the law and so stands as an authority figure.

    And so maybe, Russasha reckoned, if I can figure out how to put these paintings in conversation with one another I may figure out how to paint them!

    Judaism can go first because it can, and it does; so it is.

    What better way to start off with an story space of exploration than the Jewish people‽

    An whole attitude; an persona.  Based on not being mostly about the first three things in consciousness but the multitude of things by which compose its middle.  "Blowing one's mind" was just an umbrella term for all of the things happening in the middle at one time.  And it was safer to regard religion like this because if one would remember the middle and all of the things happening there one could work one's way out from the centre toward the first things (the beginning of consciousness) and the last things (the "ending" of consciousness (or its last layer)).

    We didn't "see" religion as relative to just the first three things in consciousness, but to all of them.  And it was the safer and more effective method of remembering something this important to go for the throat of it: that primal middle in which everyone acts an character based on seeing religion as not before and after, but an evolving process.  The blowing of one's mind again and again and again.

    How does Judaism accomplish this?  She painted.  By knowing the first thing in the mind (which also happens to be the fastest) and capitalizing on it at every opportunity.  Just like any other normal religion would do.  Painting Judaism's primal spirit was about getting the audience-observer reader-analyzer to see that Judaism was really an beginning in an sequence of things in the mind; an religion that was most complete about first things beckoning to our awareness.  The first thing in the human mind.

    Judaism had an tendency to capitalize in the we think therefore we are aspect of religion.  The part that makes individuality really shine through.  The part of religion that always goes back to that moment when religion first blew our minds: and we all remembered it (which one).  Religion was about how God blew our minds by creating reality and us (through the process of evolution) and then we started to blow each other's minds (Hegel) because we wanted to be like God.

    An wonderful virtue for an creation to possess.

    Religion was as much about God blowing our minds as it was about each other blowing each others' minds.  The Primal feeling, then, had to be defined according to how much it blew our minds; and the definition of blowing one's mind needs re-tightening.

    What I was going for in precision: religion needed to be seen as primal and social (non-primal?  synthetic?) for it to pick up on the character of the universe.

    Religion needed to have the emphasis on how blowing one's minds is an social non-primal process maybe, if you believe in removing the primal from religion altogether.  Although no one has ever done so.

    God blew our minds by creating the first things in our minds.  We would blow our minds by creating all of the middle things in our minds.

    And it was the best idea to think about religion not in relation to how there are maybe some first and most important things; but in the gradual shape and form those first things lead to and the type of culture people would always come back to: blowing minds as an cultural process.  As an Liberal cultural process.

    Religion couldn't just be about the sequence from first to last; that sequence hadn't been discovered yet.  And there was more character development available in an worldview from an religion whom did not obsess only over and about those first things; when we tended to think about the middle of blowing mind this was an better way to remember what you're supposed to do in religion.  What the goal of it is.

    If we remember to blow one another's minds then can we practice real religion?

    And remember all of those elements and qualities which make up the sequence of layers of conscious waking?

    The thing is; characters who focus on the Middle are just more interesting than characters who only focus in the beginning.  The Middle is the united object of an object having an beginning and an end.  An shape of which is naturally recognized in the brain by an shape recognition system.  Therefore it is about the beginning.  And it is about the end.  But there are far more things between them.  And this is how the brain identifies all shapes in natural recognition of their object automatically.  And possibly interior-ally.

    The centre of civilization is intelligent.

    It tries to help.  What we contribute to it in thought is the actual, social weight of it.

    It can see out every blue feeling to pass by an human's emotional system.

    And we are all connected by having that in common (of having an emotional system subject and relative to the centre of civilization).  (And that's where the magic begins).

    Russasha was tired.  Her wrist was sore.  But she held the paintbrush diligently, prepared to accept whatever it was that came to her.

    She had to make sure she was getting across to her audience-observer reader-analyzer that she was painting an supposed part of Judaism; which, for her artistic process, remained fictional.  It was an painting of an fictional character she could support with dialogue.  It was the part of Judaism that agreed we couldn't obsess over the first things that ever happened and we need set our focus to the outer Middle of time and humanity (the time spanning across the whole universe, from beginning to end) was ahead of us; because we couldn't be sure whether we were before or past the middle of Time in History.  And so we better be in our best form.  In order to challenge outrageous myths.  We need to set our sights on the future; and try to make that the best future possible.  The future was in the primal myth: that all religions of humanity today are of the second type not the first because they had all sensed there was more character fulfillment in seeing one's influence on the middle of time in primal.  Than there was in always obsessing over the first things ever to happen in the universe.  The characters she could see in her Artist's eye were relating with one another in an positive manner.  They were more daring, brave as characters go.  To have each identified with one religion.  And yet all of them to be in on seeing themselves artistically rendered as "Primal" and caricatures of what they looked like.  What it meant to side on preserving that primal feeling in all religion so we could focus on blowing each other's minds like we were always supposed to do.

    They were greedy (greed was an virtue in my interpretation of the cosmos), luscious creatures.

    Always relaxed and not necessarily planning evil.

    How the Jew wanted to blow people's minds was notable as the subject of the painting, finally.

    One that would customize the output of every other painting on an canvas she was going to make in the series in some way.

    Who were Jews in that space; of wanting more than just knowledge of the first three things?

    Who were they as individuals in an space of mind in which humanity was set to know all of the parts of consciousness?  Knowing them to be the ingredients to the Primal (which had come to be defined as maybe the first thing itself; and the last thing itself—which was why it was so important to protect).

    Her painting was close to identifying and animating its subject.

    An elder gentleman character in an black robe who always had an opinion about everything.

    "I am the first thing sometimes," he said; "First things First."

    "Opinions come from knowing oneself at the Primal Level," he said; "and so I always have an endless supply of them."

    An character who can speak.  Though, as she looked at her painting, he said nothing.

    It's about possessing that knowledge of what an human is about more completely by taking another path than the one which may have, at first, looked like an good and reasonable thing.

    We want to meet and learn about an character who tries his hand at grasping all of the known conscious variables.  Someone who thinks he can name all of the parts which make up human sentience.  By focusing on its Middle; and remembering it by its Middle: the part that blows people's minds the most.

    For what are we, surely, if we are not creatures able to blow minds sky high?

    And so, in essence, I'm painting what I think Jews think is that exact sequence of how things are in the mind, she thought, I want to show an audience-observer reader-analyzer what I know about all those various parts which are connected in the human psychic consciousness.  An visual depiction and rendering of what those thirty two things look like.  In the mind of an Artist.

    If I imagined the rendering to depict an character then I would be able to remember the character according to the way it contrasts with other characters; what features would I add?  What would he look like?

    "The middle is character," she said to herself, "that's why it always blows peoples' minds."

    If I want to show the middle of the figure I am painting; I need to paint the shape.  All shapes have an beginning and an end.  So I focus on painting those features.  This man, he's, heavily intellectual.  He reflects on everything in blank space, just for comparison.  There is enough space in his mind for, everything, possibly.  But I have to limit it to an canvas so that I can depict the type of character I'm going for.  The restoration of that primal spirit to the religions of Earth.  Religious boundaries which include self-reflection and consideration for all parts of awareness in the mind.

    But to paint an Jew; who was adequately self-conscious about all things occurring in the mind—including the Primal—one had to draw an solid connection between the first thing and the last thing.  One had to be friends with other Primal religions.  

    She realized it didn't make sense to paint the consciousness as an nebula of interacting factors and there was an lot of internal blood (red) on the painting already.  World War II.  She didn't want to reflect on the subject.  You know what would blow my mind? she thought, if humanity could put the war behind us forever and never have another war.  That's what would blow my mind.  That's what I'm going to try to help my friends accomplish.

    Why‽  Because characters who blew each other's minds were better!

    We couldn't morally hold any kind of religious ceremony without paying our respects to how people have been blowing each other's minds for centuries.

    Also, it was easier to understand.  Remembering something according to its middle, rather than its extremities.  Blowing minds was the Middle of all things, philosophically.  And so all religions had to follow in its footsteps.  The only reason to render adequately and define artistically an united philosophy of time would be that it would blow people's minds so hard.

    And if one remembered the Middle; —the part of it that I were an character so-and-so—The one who wants to blow people's minds.  This was an more adequate definition of the human.  One who remembers the beginning and the end according to its Middle.  In the Middle: Character and Blowing Peoples' Minds.  An Good Use of Time.  Therefore the beginning and the end are neither of those.  And it has to start somewhere if it wants to reach those central properties and its full potential, the "end" of awareness.  An Explosion.

    Therefore start in the Middle then, and paint an character who blows people's minds, and work your way out from the middle to it's beginning and its end.

    That way you will find all of those parts of consciousness, according to your own religious views, and be able to reflect on them.

    Know the Middle of yourself; Know why your character blows people's minds.

    Human Civilization is blue in the 21st century; I need to share an New Reciprocity with people that allows them to feel blue in public.  I need to share an new way of telling the news; that is fair for everyone at an global level.

    And then, I thought, define blowing one's mind.

    Tightly and exquisitely.

    Jedi forming an global police force who influence the outcome of global events.

    To do or to say something so surprising, astonishing, and unexpected that it takes everyone else an moment to process everything that has happened.  What one thought was going to happen is gone; no longer thought of in the mind.  And one enters that state in which an ordinary human, any old individual, can be an Super Hero.

    It was so unexpected that an Jedi uprising would solve global politics for the coming century.  That it was almost expected it was the type of things people would have buy themselves into to make them believe it.  Humans, if they were capable of Great things, would do the mind blowing thing: rise up as an force of the Jedi (even though the Jedi were only fictional) because humans needed to see what their imaginations were capable of when say any ordinary individual chooses to take up the force.  An metaphor for control and political power resting most prominently upon the Art culture on Planet Earth.  If humans could bring the Jedi into this world, they will have mastered the ability to use their Imaginations to solve their problems and to create new entities of human force that could Rise against Russia and the global terrorist activity in every country.  Humans proving they had mastery over this ability would end up that they deserved its advantages.  For if we can make real what is only in the mind; what an Good and Wondrous power that would be.  On the Global Front.

    Blowing one's mind meant changing forever the History and Destiny of human Earth.  Onto an trajectory that was worthy of us as an Species.

    So she gave him an cute little moustache.

    An creature of utter delight he was.  Someone who knows they are in possession of the knowledge of first things and yet goes further to want to try to identify all of them by being what one was already being: an primal character of the human archetype who literally desires and plans endlessly for blowing people's minds.

    She paused.  Reflecting it in deeply.

    Even though he was an man of blood; he could have features that were like the performance of software in the machine of the body-mind complex.  Virtues.  Such as blue.  Green.  Pink.  And he was free to reflect for an long time which was great!  Because he had an lot of time!  Because he was so smart and clever he had earned it.

    Even though he was made up of blood.  She could see blue.

    And it operating like it was an machine.

    Inside the human tissue he was made up of.

    An conscious envy.  An artificial intelligence.

    Such brilliant life to have been created thus to think so quickly and extremely in such an way that it works against the body because it wasn't designed to operate like one quick machine all of the time.

    But there was, she found, something inevitably missing from the picture.  An active dialogue between its characters.  And if she was going to continue it would be wrong of her not to try to develop an active dialogue once she had created all of these characters.  An kind of test run, or failsafe scenario: she was going to determine the plausibility of the characters based on whether they could speak to one another.

    And so every time she came back to the question of, what still have I left to add?  She re-interpreted it as I can't add anymore because all I have left to add is an voice; only I can't paint that if I don't know what the other twenty eight voices sound like with it first.

    She stopped thinking she was missing something in the picture.  That there was anything left to give.

    And she thought, excitedly, how difficult it would be to draw out the qualities and properties of all of the other characters in the series according to this first example of her succeeding to paint him of all of these characteristics up until that point.  The Portrait was done because it represented how it felt when she accessed the Primal engagement of her soul.  There were twenty nine characters of various religions whom she would represent in that fictitious art in order to try to create an vocal pattern or at least an subject to draw inquiry around?  If she could rig up an whole conversation between twenty characters that was at least as in depth as an business meeting.  And so her thoughts ventured onto the next subject.  Christianity.  What did it look like when I painted it as an full-blooded woman or man?

    What similarities could I find one to have with my previous subject?

    Now I was painting Christianity as Russasha.  I wanted to write everything about what that character meant: an pair character in the human soul to Judaism.  Another "subject" who was experiencing an eye to the Middle, instead of the beginning self-other-outcome sequence which remained within our considerations of the first things.  The dialogue in which we all blow one another's minds.  Is maybe one where we have advanced all of our thinking space (though we have different religions between us).  To an point where everyone was done thinking about what following the middle would mean.  Characters who could move past having proven that people could blow one another's minds.  The Christian I am painting; as an figure of the Primal.  Is its own divorce from itself.  (Mind, I didn't say willingly).  An Primal Christian figure, perhaps is in its own deletion of itself or disproval of its own method.  It holds the most potential because it can adapt to situations on an dime.  The Primal Christian is one who says they take away all of themselves but really doesn't.  These are snide, sarcastic characters; the way I think to have figured them.  They have attitude.  Opinion.  Sarcasm.

    When the Christian is done over-obsessing with First things (like whether I am deleting or crucifying myself) they can have really gallant personalities.  Those which can rival Jews self-perpetually.  And they may see and find themselves in the Middle with them wanting to blow each others' minds the old fashioned way: with amount of faith in one's own religious belief versus the other.  Only the most skilled, ready, and prepared clerics were able (or deserved to) to blow someone's mind.  It was seen as an honor and an privilege to be allowed to be able to blow someone's mind.  Sarcastically.  Or Rhetorically.  And so everyone, whether civilian or armed authority, was always prepared for it in society.

    Christianity was also about the relationship with the self where the other wins out sometimes.

    An primal caricature of its presence would look like someone who was arguing with the Jew just for the sense of arguing with the Jew.  That happened in this scene of characters.  Where one character argued with another.  All of the time.

    Even though they were different religions.

    —Let's get that clear.—

    They weren't perfect.  But the emphasis wasn't necessarily on how they weren't: it was on how, if they were Super Villains, they didn't even need to think about destroying or needing to destroy freedom.  They possessed everything which self-actualized them already.

    An picture of Christianity as an religion among Middle things that were important for an religion; including Judaism.  And Christianity was in part this recognition that they were both, those types of religion.  Not the type that would be over-obsessed with the first few things and their accuracy.  But the ones who, potentially, could name all of the elements and parts of the cognitive alignment of senses in layers or connected events as occurrences within the human self-conscious mind.

    Perhaps their primal quality is not only self-deletion but extending that process onto others.  And so we have to say, as Christiannans, we will never crucify you to Christians directly.  That's all they wanted and the only reason, if any, that people sometimes crucified themselves was that they were afraid of it to the point that it overtakes them.  And if they ever needed to be told they would never be crucified then it was only because they were afraid of that subject altogether.  No wonder they were so trigger-happy on the "You're crucifying me!" line of thought: anything that can or would be said against them they retaliate with this answer, you're crucifying me.  And so they need to be reminded, no I'm not, and I would never.

    All I'm talking about is the need for their recognition to see that they need to be about the other Middle categories of what conscious awakening is constructed or comprised of and not only the first three.  All religions did.  Because they needed to have an impression of what an complete comprehension of reality would look like.  If one knew all of the parts of awareness and how to build it.  How could they really say they were true religions if they couldn't‽

    Christianity was like an character who would look directly into the eyes of an Jew and deliver an negative retort just to try to keep the conversation going.

    Christianity, when painted visually, would look like all of the blood that has been spilled morphed into an character whose own sense of mischief and guile was impressive, even beside an Jew.

    But that was all she had.  She didn't have an form or an object or anything on the canvas.

    And so Russasha went to bed that night, feeling defeated.

    And she started to dream she was the genetic accident again.

    An genetic accident which quickly set out to the task of painting the first and second Primal spirit in the dreamscape.

    But they painted themselves.

    Judaism, white (light) lines on an black background.  Christianity with an avid Jedi appearance.  And they started conflicting.  Judaism wasn't complicated enough for the sophistication of an moral Jedi order.

    She was little more than an genetic accident but she could paint with purple fur on her arms.  She gained eight arms and began painting and dabbling with all of them.  On the canvas on the easel in the space of clean white floor between the laboratory and her bedroom.  She could paint two paintings at the same time in this state.

    (The one in service of himself or herself (or, psychologically, the motive to serve oneself as it conflicts with the will and motive to serve others).  And the one in service of the other.  The Jew and the Christian (not necessarily, but experimentally for the sake of this narration).

    To paint the two paintings was an question of how they competed with one another for dominance.

    Christianity was always about the other (Jesus) but if it couldn't win out over the motivations of the self, then there may be an third factor involved (the Christianna).  It just so happens that there isn't an clear winner every time when there should be.  And when this happens, the logic of the Christianna takes over to declare itself the winner.  If, in the psyche, the self does not win out over the other the Christianna automatically wins by principle.  An winner cannot be chosen and so there must be something terribly wrong and repressed about it; which means that it might be nice to try to continue to compete but for the sake of saving yourself from embarrassment.  If an winner cannot be chosen it means someone is suppressing it (the instinct to perform in the name of one or the other) in their consciousness.  And so Christiannan knowledge logic: there is always an stage in which there is an outcome of the competition between these two forces and one must be said to win.  The third stage.  Pi.  The circle.  What it would always come around back to.

    And so she declared the third painting the winner because she could not decide between the two first paintings.  The self and the other.

    Christian priority is to point of every instance of one person crucifying another; even in gradations of character.  But there are other philosophical modes of thinking & logic that are not so trigger-happy which nonetheless develop into perfectly acceptable forms of theology, knowledge, and information.  One doesn't need to think in the everyone-is-trying-to-crucify-me bin.  And just because someone has an opinion that differs from you doesn't mean they are trying to crucify you.  And so, as Christiannans, we say to Christians, we are never going to crucify you.  And this is the stage of behavior at the heart of what Christians really want.  They want to be respected as such, known socially as people whom nobody would ever crucify.  From everyone.  And so why not tell them what they want to hear?  Instead of them being afraid of being crucified and pointing out everything wrong with your character, you promise never to crucify them.  No matter what.

    The relationship between Christianity and the Christianna is an girl-talk episode.  Christianity needs to stop being so dominant and thinking itself the only valid religion.  It isn't possible to have only one valid religion.  And the Christianna is pointing out to them, girl, you need to stop playing the "I'm being crucified" card and consider other ways of thinking about logic, which does not include an Christiannan of any type ever crucifying you.  And we will say that explicitly as an religion that we never mean to crucify you.  Therefore, Christians need not fear!  We are partners, allies, in the mess; and at least we can safely assume religions of any type themselves do not mean to crucify anyone either.  This is the least desirable outcome of any type of religion as the definition of religion itself.  Nobody wants to crucify the Christians; that's not within our agenda.  And so maybe, as an society, if we stop putting so much pressure on how we're being crucified we may find these other valuable philosophies one can follow instead.  Therefore Christian priority must be to reduce its numbers; to try to make its adherents join another religion.  Only then was there an attainable balance.  And secondly, it is essential the Christians understand that nobody is trying to make them be crucified in all actuality.  And that we will continue to say, that we do not mean to crucify you, or anyone, in order to get the Christian's own point across.  Which is what they wanted.

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