Twïrlim Tekiser: The Drag Series Part 5

    Dr. Twïrlim Tekiser the fantasy therapist from the future!  An drag queen at work!  An woman with an cause.  An woman with an mission.  To bring mental health therapy to believers in Freud's practice.  I came into her office and she had me lay down in the chair and talk.  She said I could talk about anything.

    It was most welcoming.

    I had never really had an chance to talk with an real drag queen about my feelings before.

    "What do you think about feminists and feminism?" she started with.  It was an good one.  I had an lot to say on the subject.

    "There needs to be more of it.  And there are three main types of Feminism.  There's Feminism.  Then Straight Feminism.  And Gay Feminism.  And they work together to make feminism more powerful you see."

    "Yes well that's quite an advancement on the subject you've got there.  And do you know why I start with feminism?"

    His eyes opened wide.

    "Well—" he gurgled, "Feminism is the start of everything!  Isn't it‽"

    "I like the way you think.  So could you think of any other reason why I brought it up?"

    "Well I need to be more an girl and I'm not in touch with my feminine side," he said, "and everybody knows it because they think I'm ugly."

    He started crying.

    "See this is what real girls do for each other," said Dr. Twïrlim Tekiser, "I can see an girl in trouble when I see one.  Here honey."

    She passed him an tissue.

T    "What else, dear?"

C    "I'm genderfluid and nobody seems to notice."

T    "I noticed."

C    "Ya.  You did!"

T    "How do you feel about it?"

C    "I feel like I'm saved!"

T    "You are saved Honey.  I'll take care of you."

C    "Thank you so much."

T    "It's what Feminists do.  So tell me more about your feminism, gay feminism, and straight feminism?"

C    "Okay well there's feminism, which includes all women.  And then there is gay feminism, which includes all gay women.  And then there's straight feminism which includes all straight men."

T    "Feminism is about equality between the sexes.  And so why would you make an category for only women?"

C    "Trust me honey, there is."

T    "And is that what you are, then, an feminism; an woman?"

C    "No I'm gay feminism."

T    "I see.  And you say these roles are carried out in society?"

C    "Yes."

T    "And you're telling an drag queen?"

C    "Because all gay feminists (gay women) are feminists (women).  And all straight feminists are gay feminists (men)."

T    "Why do you group all of the women together (women and gay women) and not the men?"

C    "It's just to confuse them to see whether other people are confused."

T    "Well don't do that."

C    "Why not?  Can I instead tell you about the republic and my public duty to send it back to the republic everything which is unsavory to my senses of a-reciprocity and reciprocity in commodity.  In order to save us from having to be asshole jerks because we're not."

T    "Tell me everything dear."

C    "Okay well republics are where people are republicans because they can republic everything that gets sent to them that is anti-republic with wit and humor; being the clever vessels of political justice that they are we are everywhere they are on Earth.  And that is how we govern ourselves."

T    "So you see yourself as an republican."

C    "Yes and all of the voices I send back to the republic because I can.  And when they stop tormenting me they just go back there.  To the republic.  Where I put them.  Where I re-publicked them.  Where they can stop treating me, like, well; Like I wasn't an member of the Public.  Because that's the point of the Republic.  Because that's all anyone really wants."

T    "I see.  And do you see it as an problem then, when something makes sense to you?"

C    "Not generally.  It's just that when it makes sense to me it doesn't necessarily make sense to anybody else."

T    "And this is the feeling that we want to treat with this kind of method.  I want you to try to make sense to me."

C    "Okay.  Well I think I can agree with that."

T    "Make sense of your day for me."

C    "Okay well I got up.  I mean.  I woke up.  And then I got up.  Because I get out of bed after I wake up.  Obviously.  And then I had some coffee.  And then I checked the News on my Computer.  I went outside an few times and I saw some of my friends today."

T    "And then you made it here for your appointment."

C    "Yes and now I'm talking to you.  And—"

T    "And what are you going to do later?"

C    "Well I'm going relax an bit because I will feel better from talking to you."

T    "Good.  Make sense of that feeling better by talking to me."

C    "Okay.  Well.  I'm going to tell you all of my feelings and trying to make sense to you.  That's-what-you-wanted.  It's just.  What am I supposed to say in Public, when I want someone to go back to the type of Public I had imagined we were better citizens to be?"

T    "What do you mean?"

C    "When people stop treating me like I'm part of the Public.  Like I'm worth anything.  And I want them to go back to the Public and be the better citizens that I think they are.  Instead of bullying me!"

T    "Tell them you expect better out in public; and you're not afraid to say anything that will amount against their reputation.  So they should just smarten up!"

C    "Oh if only it were that simple Twïrlim!"

T    "You will call me Doctor."

C    "Sorry, Doctor.  It's just.  If it were that simple I wouldn't be here."

T    "An common complaint.  I assure you.  And I see what you're getting at."

C    "It's just that I'm crazy all the time.  And these voices are talking to me all the time.  And they want me to lick the floor with republickanism and so I do it.  To make an example of them.  To have been defeated so.  Without any trace of historical context."

T    "So when these voices are being anti-republican to you; what are they saying?  What are they doing?  Are they visions of your imagination?  Do they have bodies?  Or are they psychic reciprocity with somebody?"

C    "They have bodies and they are dominating me in the most abusive and repressive way.  That I'm no good for any potential Public no matter where it ye be."

T    "Which is where they put it?"

C    "Yes."

T    "Okay so I'm going to suggest that since they are voices happening to you in your own mind they must be you.  And since they are you.  You are responsible for putting it up your own."

C    "But the only reason they are me is that other people want an psychic reciprocity with me in that way."

T    "Why?"

C    "Because they are that.  They're mean.  They don't want me to have an republic; that since they are part of the Public, they also have an public duty to us."

T    "And how does that make you feel?"

C    "It makes me feel like.  Why bother.  What's the point‽  Of all this stupid shit.  I try so hard to make my family proud.  And instead of reciprocalizing with me on an open market economy.  As part of the same Public.  I am instead assailed with resources anti-gay to end my public appearance in any way.  So that I am not responsible for raising the bar.  And incapable of being an servant to anything good."

T    "I want you to think about how you react to it specifically.  It is upsetting.  But all you can do is maybe react to it better."

C    "React to it better?  Like how?"

T    "Like instead of saying 'These are the voices that are tormenting me'; say 'These are the voices that I am tormenting instead'.  Like hit back to them.  Don't let them determine your behavior."

C    "Hit back to them?  How do I do that since its psychologically?"

T    "Well they aren't really there‽"

C    "They are!  They are!"

T    "They are!  Okay.  Well feel yourself physically in your space.  In the space that you occupy.  And instead of feeling like that space is being transgressed by an dominate and oppressive force.  BE that dominate and oppressive force which is forced to quarantine the enemy in the name of peace.  So that High Society and Fashion can continue."

C    "But that would go against everything I stand for."

T    "Explain."

C    "I don't hit.  I never hit.  I don't do that."

T    "You don't need to hit.  IT's psychologically."

C    "Then what am I doing exactly?"

T    "You're looking at how you deal with the situation as an physical effort.  In which you are not actually assailed by any opponent."

C    "Yeah.  That feels good Doc."

T    "There you go now.  Nobody is dominating or occupying your space.  Your physical effort is an success.  You are meant to oppose those forces which are set to rob you of any sense of security as though you could be physically prepared for it too, not just psychologically."

C    "Not just psychologically.  Like what's the difference between that and everything else?"

T    "Well Everything Else isn't an behavior of the mind; it is the difference between doing something and thinking something.  The doing part isn't psychological.  It's the thinking part that is psychological."

C    "The World is doing thus to me‽"

T    "No you are doing thus to it."

C    "By thinking?"

T    "I think, therefore I am."

C    "So what is doing then?"

T    The therapist snorted an little laughter.

C    "Oh.  You mean."

T    "Doing isn't necessarily an matter of thinking."

C    "But why not‽"

T    "Because thinking isn't exactly doing; exactly,"

C    "But I think I should think just fine while I am doing it."

T    "Why not‽"

C    "You sound like my French teacher."

T    "Well we share how we are doing it all the time.  It's no secret."

C    "OMG yes and this is that chasm I foretold that once I had set to invigorate myself of what it was it would envelop me completely and I would be lost.  That if I shared how I do it.  I would inevitably be laughed at.  And not belong to the republic."

T    "You can share how you do it with me," said the Doctor, "just any quick impression will do.  We're not talking about actually showing one another.  We're talking about not showing one another exactly."

C    "So it's okay to hide how I do things?"

The Doctor smiled.

T    "It would be against my practice;" she said, "if you didn't."

C    "Okay but I want to be thinking while I have an orgasm.  What would be wrong with that?"

T    "It's not that there would be anything wrong with it; it's just that if you were then what were you really thinking about?  Someone else?"

C    "No.  Why can't I just be thinking?  And not lose consciousness and all moral and civil sanity of reciprocate pleasure in activity."

T    "Trust me.  It's an better sign if you're not thinking when it happens."

C    "Well you don't mean not thinking.  You just mean not thinking."

T    "Not thinking."

C    "And that's how they do it‽"

T    "Yes."

C    "OMG why I am such an case; what frigid comfort level for I have no one to bear where it would be preferred to have been.  I am such an occiput wreck obliterated I cannot see past my own thinking to well thinking.  Without thinking."

T    "Without thinking."

C    "But I spend all of my time thinking.  If I cannot stop to relax from thinking by doing it without thinking.  Like everyone else can.  Then I'm an occiput wreck and I cannot see past."

T    "And this is the fact Everybody knows that they may not want to recognize as such, because they know it's true.  Most-often the reason people need-therapy."

C    "Most often‽  How can that be‽"

T    "It is most often."

C    "Why?"

T    "That's how deep and tremor-some the deep really is."

C    "I see.  And all of nature can flee in terror from its factuality.  Including ashamed humans who are reduced to thinking all of the time obsessively for that very reason that they are thinking about it."

T    "But if you have an connection to the deep; and you know how to shift into low gear for an while it can be extremely comforting and calming to all of the senses, including those of the persons who want to help you.  They may not know how completely and you're stuck to learn an lesson whether you like it or not.  More tragic things have ever occurred."

C    "But it is the Psychologist's sense of things ever having occurred never-have-occurred which frightens me."

T    "It is not my Profession to claim I have tried to."

C    "No."

-Phew-

C    "But if I value what you have told me.  Then you may be right about why I am so crabby."

T    "It's only natural to feel that way, hon.  After all, some people have all of the cards from early on.  And others who don't need their help.  It is Responsibility."

C    "So how do I function in low drive; I mean how do I just cruise and allow myself to feel complete and completely comfortable.  Sexually?"

T    "Let it find its object."

C    "I see."

T    "And reciprocate the fact that you can see mine; which isn't you."

C    "Got it."

T    "And Note Everybody is an body language reader but few actually listen."

C    "OK."

T    "So next time you are afflicted with these voices.  In Addition to the fact that they appear to you to be unyielding and a-reciprocal.  Anti-Public in fact.  And that since they are you.  We must assume that it is your own party to be anti-public in fact to some degree in some capacity.  What is it you are going to do?"

C    "I'm going to tell myself.  I Deserve to be part of the Public.  And I'm not just another cranky bitch.  And I have real beauty and real Political and Religious output.  And anybody who creeps me out of the republic I will send back at ye; avast they obliterated are.  By Public Interest and Positivity."

T    "And what do we say about thinking and doing?"

C    "Thinking is good but doing is even better."

T    "Good."

C    "The part I was looking for.  The part about them legislating the fantasy genre.  So that it would be illegal not to participate in a-reciprocate behaviors in an fantasy.  You had to be Evil.  If you were.  But if you could not deny that there are no a-reciprocate behaviors in an fantasy—"

T    "This is it.  This is your gem which I'm about to set.  Perfectly—"

C    "There are a-reciprocate figures in an fantasy.  I'm sure of that."

T    "And?"

C    "Therefore fantasy can be both a-reciprocal and reciprocal; it is quasi-hegemonic."

T    "But your recent legal fantasy seems to have drawn or occupied some of your imagination.  It is perhaps part of the most detailed and delicate part of the system of the intelligence of law.  That at some point people are going to talk about it fairly.  That's what the law is.  And so if you legalize a-reciprocity based on its inherent value, as destroyer of Fantasies; then you are in fact legalizing the destruction of fantasies."

C    "But if we allow characters to be a-reciprocal without needing to close the genre, as though fantasy included no a-reciprocate character at all; and the fantasy would just continue then in public.  People would be a-reciprocate Good people or reciprocate Evil ones.  And pretend like it really mattered.  Which it does as per the distinction of value on an capitalistic market enterprise."

T    "I think this may be your big discovery.  You see something about Evil which is good; and you empathize for that good because that's what Good does.  And since Good is wanting to destroy evil but it's all just fiction; then Good cannot be evil because that would be a-reciprocal."

C    "Or reciprocal."

T    "Maybe.  Think it through carefully.  Choose correctly."

C    "Okay so if I happen to act Evil in public or not; and if I happen to act Good in public or not.  Then it would not necessarily be reciprocal that I stopped being Evil at an particular moment when it would have received the most pleasure.  And that a-reciprocity, though less in economical value was the way to go.  And if Good is the most reciprocal subject.  Then it's impossible not to reciprocate it.  And any a-reciprocity, while fictional, will be reduced to its economic commodity."

T    "Which some people can get away with."

C    "Then I can be my fantasy character all the time in public and it doesn't matter what the a-reciprocal expression in my fantasy could be; because fantasy is in part a-reciprocal—it's the fictional part of whether it's fictional or not.  How a-reciprocal can anything be‽  To destroy the whole perception of the fantasy so that it is reduced to an exchange between two a-reciprocal subjects who go on and on forever, a-reciprocal to each other because they cannot recognize that it is their a-reciprocity to one another which makes them so simple."

T    "Okay.  Take an moment to breathe slowly.  This is going to being an little bit of an learning curve but I'm sure you'll do fine."

C    "Okay."

T    "Now lay back and tell me what happened."

C    "Okay I was an a-reciprocal character in an conversation with another a-reciprocal character and our a-reciprocity wouldn't end because that's not what a-reciprocity does."

T    "I see.  And did the a-reciprocity perchance to think so‽"

C    "If a-reciprocal spends all of its time being reciprocal according to another definition.  Then can we really call it a-reciprocity.  And then.  What would a-reciprocity be under this new paradigm.  If it could be justified as an fantasy measure as an market economic product?"

T    "I see.  And so you spend your time thinking about justice and fantasy perhaps because you feel that an connection with justice would be an fantasy.  Which is fictional in some measure.  And to restore justice to that place where it wouldn't be fictional in fantasy you feel the inevitable pull toward writing legal fantasies and definitions for types of behavior that can be tolerated as generally a-reciprocal; compared to further character archetypes who are not to be tolerated so much as appreciated for being able to reciprocate anything.  The Reciprocal.  The most powerful interest on planet Earth.  Being masters of narrative art and poetry they accumulate vast swaths of reciprocal command and theories which serve their interest.  While anything a-reciprocal is considered as usual less valuable."

C    "But how am I supposed to decide between being an Evil or an Good character‽"

T    "It will depend on the consumerist opinion of the value of their points card at an particular location."

C    "And what does this have to do with my personal enterprise or anything that has anything to do with me.  And why does it serve an personal interest?"

T    "It's your Success to write the New Reciprocity, an economic theory as much as it is durable and available to everybody.  And your conclusions here will suit its analysis.  Is new reciprocal theory necessarily sometimes a-reciprocal and in what circumstances and when?  Or does it stand the test of time that only reciprocity can be truly economical and all a-reciprocity will need to become taboo?"

C    "I see where the plot drives you there.  That's why I need to write it.  Everytime I fantasize there's always some a-reciprocal thought behind each thought which destroys the fantasy.  And it is that way partly, because of the time in which I live in, and I wanted so badly to define the simplest unit of narrative because I felt narrative which had the powers of an god could exist on an open Post-Demographic Consumerist Economy which was susceptible to both Myth and Myth Powers; gods could be fantasy creatures."

T    "Ohh!  It sounds sizzlin' hon."

C    "Thank you.  Well I didn't invent the post-demographic consumerism for nothing.  I mean I really actually need to write an Legal Doctrine whereby I define the parameters of the fantasy which are violated; so that an human rights assembly can be conducted.  And I need to write my Political Philosophy as an Book of non-fiction in order to get across what any basic value of meaning could mean in fiction.  Beginning with the value of its first enterprise; the title I had gradually given to my interpretation of what enterprise encompasses.  I had it all worked out, politically, you see.  As an economic exchange or transaction between the two most essential components of human Culture and Civilization."

T    "How would we be able to track that kind of commodity?"

C    "Well it's actually really interesting how it works you see.  There is an moment of breach of a-reciprocity or breach of reciprocity and then there are contrasting (basic Good and Evil) characters narrated across the medium of Capitalistic performance.  In which an exchange occurs between them that has some value for the narrator.  And that when this exchange is over that line and actual drama occurs as part of the plot line.  We increase basic consumeristic good and Capital value.  Of the transaction of good and evil across the reciprocate or a-reciprocate lines of freedom; so that one gains value and the other gains more value.  And that anyone had dare to sink to a-reciprocity for the sake of initializing an plot line, the ultimate end of which lead to their gain.  Lead to everyone's gain.  Who would be so a-reciprocal as to be noble to that end?  But that an economy was good enough to enable into this type of behavior.  Then we might begin to question ourselves the line between representing evil and gaining evil."

T    "It sounds concise.  Succinct.  Like you'll knock it out of the park."

C    "Thank you.  It's really helping me to talk with you like I would an professional."

T    "I am an professional."

C    "But I mean I am too.  And I'm just not professional in any way employable but I have my merits.  And I feel like I don't get to talk enough with other professional people often enough.  So you're really helping me."

T    "Oh Thank you."

C    "Well I'm also working on an minimalist novel and an metaphorical scripture."

T    "Good for you.  Would you like to talk more about it?"

C    "Not really."

T    "I see.  But what would you like to talk about then?"

C    "Nothing just like OMG.  A-reciprocal people sometimes freak me out because I don't know whether that's actual normal reciprocity or not.  It can't be‽  Being a-reciprocal is not my thing at all!"

T    "But what if I told you it was normal behavior.  And that being a-reciprocally paranoid is really just nerves about the market exchange in which a-reciprocity happens all the time.  And that anyone a-reciprocally paranoid is in fact worried about the time in which people would act a-reciprocally out in public.  Which appears to them to be unnatural and inhumane.  But which, like I said, happens all of the time.  On the economic global economy."

C    "But not in certain regions?"

T    "In all regions.  We're everywhere.  Capitalistic Folk."

C    "And Capitalism means being a-reciprocal in an consumerist market economy‽"

T    "As long as it gets me points on my customer reward card!"

C    "So it appears to me.  That I may be paranoid about a-reciprocal feelings.  Like why do people feel that way and can I be part of it?  Or would that defeat it's purpose?"

T    "Well, theoretically, we could broaden the definition to include any type of behavior which will award consumers on their customer reward points card an a-reciprocate commodification of value.  Which under your system would be presented in relation to Reciprocity, which is the real known Capitalist Market Interest."

C    "And so by normalizing the economy to a-reciprocate values.  We gain the freedom to express them ourselves.  Without being a-reciprocate."

T    "But since they are a-reciprocate values we're expressing.  Because that's what they are."

C    "Then they actually have value.  And can be commoditized as such."

T    "And you're feeling, aren't you, that it's just your theory of everything needed to be said; and that it being responsible in part for the way you are feeling, you actually have reciprocal emotional relationships and feelings—to it.  And that now you've begun to start the motion of the machine of your economic and political theory, your living quality will improve in time."

C    "Yes."

T    "Yes.  And I suspect it will be in your discovery to find a-reciprocity in itself for its beautif- and value.  Of when you will execute it correctly on the consumerist demand economy.  And in which way you will reciprocalize; by being Evil or Caring enough to advance the plot and discussion of reciprocity in an reciprocal command economy."

C    "OMG I don't know—what if people are a-reciprocate to me?"

T    "Charge them points on the consumer points card!"

C    "You mean me.  Like if I have my own business or corporation?"

T    "Corporatize yourself in fiction.  Show people who you are.  Okay, well maybe it's one way to deal with it.  Actually represent or stand up for yourself."

C    "I believe in the economy, and I will award you a-reciprocity points on your consumer points card.  Arranged for only the best in status.  Whose known value on the economic market system will gain capital under my watch and eye.  You actually want me to speak like this?"

T    "Well sure.  Why not?  It's actually an decent way to get the point across that, even should some pedestrian character look muggy to you you can categorize the exchange on an open market value.  In which time and interest are worth more than a-reciprocity points they are worth reciprocity points."

C    "But that's supposed to solve the problem of a-reciprocal people everywhere?"

T    "Well someone has to do it!"

C    "How can we award A-reciprocity when what it stands for is Evil, if we value it out in public this will lead to our demise.  The whole global environmental ecosystem depends on the success or failure of its humans.  Who have the power and are within sight of technology which will enable them to preserve Earth's natural wonder and still be able to harvest resources from nearby planets.  Whose own environmental ecosystems too will become preserved in time.  This will allow us to be ready here for other civilizations travelling here with faster-than-lightspeed technology.  We will be able to show them how we preserved the natural ecosystem of Earth in order to highlight on the Capital opportunity that if they should arrive we would have mega resources and items of rare quantity and value for them.  Especially modern cuisine and recipes from our distant ancestors."

T    "It's just that you have an bias against what a-reciprocity is because you were told, repressively, not to express it as an child to fulfill your father's bogus Christian ego in which we can be an perfect peaceful species if only people would not design their lives around death and punishment.  The natural Psychological state of humanity is being able to use a-reciprocity in daily matters to protect oneself or economic gain."

C    "You mean like how exactly?"

T    "Well say some bitch cuts you off on the highway and then you meet her at the gas station an hour later and you lose your cool and say some a-reciprocal things to her.  That gets her motor running and she says some a-reciprocal things to you.  And this happens normally in every culture and every psychological status everywhere.  Even if Christians say it doesn't."

C    "But wasn't that good parenting to tell me never to be a-reciprocal with anyone because that's what Jesus did.  And that's why they killed him.  They were so selfish to be a-reciprocal with someone who just wanted peace and to be reciprocal with everybody."

T    "But their point was that a-reciprocity is sometimes necessary; and by God and commandment if their leader said they were a-reciprocal then in an orthodox way they would be a-reciprocal because he was commanding it and it was so.  And so they actually had to be a-reciprocal enough to crucify him because he himself had ordered them to be reciprocal.  Which they couldn't stand.  Psychologically.  They couldn't stand being worse and less than the reciprocal messiah and entity that he was."

C    "So you're saying it's okay to be a-reciprocal even if that was what lead to Jesus crucifixion."

T    "No I'm saying there are different parameters in this day and age.  We can all agree killing one another isn't normal behavior because Jesus legacy was so bold as to conform society to this particular truth even though they overdid it an little by shutting out other religions who know and are aware that there is room for more than one master religion.  And an master religion will never exist.  And if that's just part of society now then we can put a-reciprocal and reciprocal into other parameters.  Like talking to someone at the gas station who had just cut you off without thinking about pouring gas all over her and her car and lighting it on fire."

C    "What about like.  You send an angry letter to someone.  To an business.  To complain about an product."

T    "Yes, yes!  I like it!  This is an reciprocal command economy.  If we can't reciprocally command what we want then what we can't reciprocally get is a-reciprocal to us."

C    "And what about Politics?  Should Politicians be a-reciprocal to one another ever?  Or would that send the wrong message?"

T    "Well I mean, politically, if your mommy and daddy told you if you were an bad little Christian boy by being a-reciprocate with anyone, especially your mother."

C    "It could have left emotional scars that I'm not addressing."

T    "Trying to be reciprocate all of the time is like trying to wear an suit that always fits.  Even though it doesn't.  You're telling your brain to like someone and be an compassionate person to them when really you just feel like a-reciprocalizing them for being so infuriating."

C    "Yeah.  I think I'm afraid to a-reciprocate.  Because they laugh at people who are afraid to a-reciprocate.  That's what a-reciprocal is.  But they only laugh because they think I actually am afraid of it.  When really I am actually afraid of it just as I should be in my closest instinct.  To stay far away from anything a-reciprocal."

T    "But if you can't get away from it being a-reciprocal is everywhere."

C    "But this takes me into my religious instincts against promoting a-reciprocity in the general public.  Everyone knows we do not need that.  We in fact need more reciprocity.  And any type of a-reciprocity that exists at an known value in an market economy is only fictional.  Because it is the basic reciprocity of the species that instinct to be a-reciprocal or not.  And one is far undervalued for its potential to promote change in society."

T    "But we can have the best of both worlds."

C    "We can‽  Are you really sure we can‽"

T    "If it's fictional then yes."

C    "So you mean conflicts.  Actual confrontations that are fictional.  In some aspect."

T    "The ability to turn an conflict around into an alliance; this is the fictional aspect.  Which sometimes it fulfills.  Because we all know what we really feel about grumpin' about each other when really we're there to help one another become an better person."

C    "Then there is no a-reciprocity then."

T    "But if it is true there is no a-reciprocity we could introduce it artificially or virtually to the human commodity; the behaviors of a-reciprocity have an artificial value on an market capitalism street price which award their members points for being a-reciprocal.  So that a-reciprocity actually has an known common Capital value.  Which will allow its users to demonstrate the true extent of their powers of a-reciprocity, should they need them."

C    "But wouldn't it make sense for an Genius to try to keep all a-reciprocity out of his life completely and that, if he should perchance succeed, he would never need to be a-reciprocal in any situation?"

T    "It's an figure to puzzle over.  But I'm saying that Geniuses actually are a-reciprocal all the time; there are just some things in life worth being a-reciprocal to.  And you're probably experiencing psychosis as an result of the moral conditioning of your upbringing which says that you cannot be an a-reciprocal person.  Even though being human demands being a-reciprocal sometimes.  And that kind of pressure and fear of being controlled of being a-reciprocal is why you struggle so much."

C    "But I just can't.  There's something inhuman about doing that."

T    "Do what?"

C    "Frown and Yell."

T    "People frown and yell all the time and if they didn't we wouldn't have an working democracy or and standard of capital trade."

C    "But I don't want to be that person.  And I don't want people to treat me that way."

T    "Hiding in fear of it your whole life is not the way to live though.  You're probably paranoid because you aren't prepared for a-reciprocity.  When you know that you should be.  You will feel more secure and whole if you train in preparation of the worst a-reciprocity of your life."

C    "So you're saying that because I'm Christian, I was pressured as an child to behave differently than an human should; without conflict and confrontation leading to verbal and physical violence which is what you're saying that the natural standard is moments of reciprocity and moments of a-reciprocity."

T    "I want you to broaden your definition of what a-reciprocate may mean."

C    "Okay."

T    "Instead of associating it with violence and an situation getting out of control.  Try seeing it as an way to get an situation under control."

C    "By showing other people my anger?  And to stop being nice to get what I want?"

T    "Yes."

C    "Because if I don't?"

T    "If you don't then you're not expressing your natural emotions.  You're bottling them up.  They need somewhere to go.  Think of a-reciprocity as an economic protocol.  The more normalizing a-reciprocity is in society the less it will lead to violence."

C    "Why is that?"

T    "Under the New Reciprocity, a-reciprocity is sanctioned as public behavior as long as it is either an succinct representation of good or evil.  Both of which have an economic value under the perfect system."

C    "So if a-reciprocity is normalizing or normalized politically, you mean, then it will be less likely to lead to violence."

T    "Yeah.  Like people who suffer from road rage.  They will be more likely to solve the matter peacefully.  And so what if an customer gets a-reciprocal with an business owner or an whole business, or an politician a-reciprocal with an citizen?  That's what they're supposed to do!  They represent an cause which is a-reciprocal to some people.  That's just how all politics is."

C    "But I'm afraid a-reciprocity is against my religious beliefs.  And that there is no place for it there."

T    "It's against your religion to return an item to an store?"

C    "No it's not the returning part it's the angry scary faces."

T    "Economic Capitalism calls for a-reciprocity.  It means you need to make sure you understand exactly what it is before you decide what it means to you in religion."

C    "Can you help me with that?"

T    "I sure can."

C    "Okay well how will I decide whether a-reciprocity is moral.  I don't need to ask whether reciprocity is moral because I already know it.  Is that why maybe a-reciprocity is amoral?"

T    "But you already have an idea of it.  Let's expand on that.  Not necessarily that it is immoral.  But just tell me what the general sense of it is that you have."

C    "A-reciprocity is when someone destroys their own respect for you.  In order to manipulate you into doing something."

T    "And let's say it's natural.  That not everyone will get along this way without it."

C    "Then any a-reciprocate act I am responsible for I cannot accept as behavior from myself."

T    "But you have to because you're human."

C    "And humans are responsible for being a-reciprocate."

T    "But what I'm saying is you can't expect your behavior never to include a-reciprocate actions because that's what human is.  If you didn't ever have an a-reciprocal behavior then you wouldn't be human."

C    "Well maybe I'm not.  And that's fine with me."

T    "Whatever.  But I think you will better relax if you stop worrying about yourself expressing a-reciprocity.  Your voice of reason tells you not to because that was how you were raised.  But we can't stretch and mold the plastic species into whatever shape we want.  We are a-reciprocal sometimes.  And we have to be.  And you're not an bad person for expressing it here."

C    "—And why can't sports go in the other direction?  Instead of trying to be the most athletically fit we try to be the least athletically fit.  And separate into two camps which will influence children's decision-making about their choices in life in an positive way—"

T    "Where did that come from?"

C    "Well you said to be a-reciprocal."

T    "I didn't say to be a-reciprocal.  I said if you happened to be it wouldn't matter."

C    "Why?"

T    "Because you think it does."

C    "—And I cannot express my own a-reciprocity because I'm an coward to that I would have to share feelings that way‽"

T    "Consider that maybe the answer is.  Yes."

C    "But they're the cowards for needing a-reciprocity because they're too afraid to be reciprocal."

T    "Who are?"

C    "People who say my mental health has something to do with not expressing a-reciprocity.  As if that by doing this I had repressed myself.  As an coward."

T    "Well maybe your mental health has something to do with not expressing a-reciprocity.  Our figures show that most people display an healthy a-reciprocity for many things."

C    "Well there are things I'm a-reciprocal to.  It's not like I'm just reciprocal to everything."

T    "Yeah, and what's so bad about that?"

C    "So it's an bind then.  I'm either not expressing enough a-reciprocity to get my feelings across.  Or anyone who says this is wrong because it was healthier and smarter of me to be reciprocal if I could."

T    "Consider that in some cases it was not healthier and stronger of you not to express a-reciprocity.  And you'd do better to confront those persons.  In order to manage your reciprocal feelings."

C    "But the point is to avoid a-reciprocal activity.  That's how I manage my reciprocal feelings."

T    "But it would be more empathetic of you to confront those feelings in others.  To understand why there is a-reciprocity between you.  It's upsetting not necessarily to either party if they can handle criticism; or worth reciprocalizing what it is you or both of you are upset about."

C    "Do you actually think my religion and upbringing are to blame for making me an reciprocal queen?  When it should be healthier and more normal to sometimes express these feelings which are a-reciprocal?  But anyone who had those feelings deserved to have them because they didn't properly manage them?  Or think about or sympathize for the person with whom they are being a-reciprocal?"

T    "It's an grey area for sure."

C    "You mean that sometimes a-reciprocity is more reciprocal than reciprocity?"

T    "Or reciprocity is sometimes more a-reciprocal than a-reciprocity."

C    "But how I can I base my moral feelings on that?"

T    "Be skeptical.  Suggest to yourself that since you can't see it clearly this must be why it is true that both a-reciprocate and reciprocate feelings are valid.  To have generated an field in which exchange of emotion and Reciprocity is built on the a-reciprocity itself.  You can't build something out of nothing, one of my teachers used to tell me.  But in this case it appears that you can."

C    "And so if I was a-reciprocate religiously; or that maybe, even though I was never a-reciprocate religiously, I could be on the political stage."

T    "That's an good way to start with looking at it."

C    "But if I am never a-reciprocate spiritually."

T    "Which is fathomably impossible."

C    "Then maybe the expression of my religion can be reciprocity at the same time the expression of my political opinion can be a-reciprocity.  People were a-reciprocate to me because I was gay.  That was the problem.  Not the a-reciprocity itself."

    "A-reciprocity is what you're repressing.  By not expressing it you can damage your own mental health.  Not expressing it is the cowardly approach."

    "I'm not afraid of expressing it; I'm just not interested in it at all."

    "Because you were raised that way in an stuffy Christian environment."

    "But I'm not afraid of it."

    "You think you're not.  Because you repressed it.  That's what repression is."

    "But why would I be afraid of it?"

    "It's an scary thing to be a-reciprocal with someone."

    "Then why ever do it?"

    "It's an sign of maturity that you are able to do so."

    "But why‽"

    "Because you have to.  That's what you are."

    "But I know what it feels like.  And I remember every time someone was a-reciprocal with me.  And I knew I never wanted to treat people that way.  Even though they say it is an trait to an adult.  I think they're wrong."

    "The Psychology isn't.  However.  So let me be the one to furnish its definition for you.  A-reciprocity, according to your perspective, has not been expanded upon to its full meaning in my perspective.  To you a-reciprocity is an hot stage that by entering into your grade of yourself an failure for ever bargaining so.  An thing to be ashamed of.  To me it's an step in the bargain we must make with ourselves in life.  I am a-reciprocal with anyone I care to be a-reciprocal to because my a-reciprocity doesn't hurt."

    "Then how can you say it is a-reciprocity if it has the same properties as reciprocity?"

    "It's just that both of my talents with either of them are of this nature."

    "And you measure your a-reciprocity with the word talent?"

    "Of course you would take it to that level.  Your religious reciprocity is that."

    "According to my religion, Anna is the second messiah (of the fate worse than death) because people treated her a-reciprocally.  An na.  Is an na.  It's just as simple as that.  A-reciprocity is when we unconsciously think an na about somebody.  When really reciprocity demands or justifies never treating another person as though they were an na."

    "So you tend to begin to define a-reciprocity based on an religious practice."

    "And I suppose you think that's worse?"

    "If you've repressed a-reciprocity as part of your religion; then you mess with the real (not artificial) parts of the human psyche.  The psyche is built to handle some a-reciprocity."

    "Then you are admitting it is something we need to handle‽  An negative pattern of behavior to be corrected‽  And what—You have no Answer.  But if religion cannot inform psychology where does that leave us?"

    "If there is an reason for an Doctor of Psychology like myself to begin to define a-reciprocity the same way do you; in certain cases.  For specific reasons relating to your identity.  Then I will be open to doing that but I hear them out completely.  So that we may show what it is you have done to your relationship with the a-reciprocal.  And once we have it out there I will suggest to you various ways other people have learned to talk about psychology in their daily lives including their practice of their religion."

    "Great.  That's more than I could ever have hoped for when I went looking for psychological help.  Thanks."

    "So when you begin to define what it is your a-reciprocity you're talking about, I'm going to take some notes.  Tell me everything you know about it."

    "A-reciprocity means you stop loving someone in order to hurt them."

    "How would that play out in actions and behaviors exactly?"

    "Insults.  Violence.  Grand Theft Auto."

    "So your definition of a-reciprocity is anything that is against the Public basically."

    "Hitting.  Is a-reciprocal.  Yelling.  Is a-reciprocal.  And being mean are a-reciprocal."

    "And these.  Hitting.  Yelling.  And Being Mean.  Are against your religion?"

    "Well, I mean, unless they have to."

    "I see.  And exactly what do you mean.  By being mean."

    "It's worse than Hitting and Yelling!  It's the psychological damage!  It's the strategies.  The torture.  It is the psychological damage of worse than death!  Like when they won't even be mean to you because even that is too nice for them.  Or when they won't even be mean to you even when that would be better than death.  And my fates.  My Fates!  They are turning even with black-sits instead of more respect for an papaya than me allowing me to have an fate better than them.  They pull me back into the gutter.  Every single time."

    "You mean people actually treat you this way.  Or you perceive that people treat you this way."

    "You're doing it right now.  You're just like every other one of them!"

    "Yea, but I'm an Drag Queen.  Who says NO to an Drag Queen‽"

    "You're right."

    "Good.  Now tell me."

    "IT's just being mean is everywhere.  And we all know it's a-reciprocal and not to do it.  But we do it anyway."

    "But what if I told you we all know it's reciprocal and to do it?"

    "You mean.  You're asking me to be a-reciprocal to you?"

    "You can try to be."

    "But I already am a-reciprocal to an certain extent.  My-Mood-and-Humour-are-always a-reciprocal.  I-mean-reciprocal!  I'm just kidding with you."

    "I know you're kidding."

    "That's why I'm here."

    "Yes.  It is."

    "SO I need to be a-reciprocal.  I knew it.  Everyone thinks I'm an well, an papaya.  An fruit.  That some people hold to be of higher value than me, my person."

    "You need to at least try darling.  It's how we judge all good looks and character.  By how a-reciprocate you can be.  Because no matter how much there is, in Psychology, there's always more."

    "See, when you put it that way‽  I'm thinking why would I ever want to a-reciprocate if that's not really what we judge all good looks and character by.  And I can see it as plain as day, an inner light; the virtue of accepting all reciprocal behavior.  And shunning the dark side; the a-reciprocate nature.  Whose nature we blast out in the ascension; and fail to see our Primary Sector for what it is.  The Global Ecosystem (Nature)."

    "Just try."

    "Okay.  But.  But wait an minute.  If I am a-reciprocal then who am I being a-reciprocal to?"

    "Me."

    "But how can I be a-reciprocal to you if I have nothing to complain of about your character?"

    "Who do you have something to complain of about my character?  If you have nothing then I will complain about your character.  For that it was not possible both of us had something to complain about one another's character.  And that this was an natural feeling to have something to complain about another person's character.  But Christians are busy teaching everyone never to have anything to complain about another person's character.  Then it must be you whom I have to complain about for simply the fact that if you have nothing to complain about my character you aren't analyzing it well.  Nobody has anything to complain about being the complaint I. primarily. it. to progress in this conversation.  That not having something to complain is itself something to complain about.  The exchange of a-reciprocity is just an fact of life.  So what does being mean mean to you?"

C    "It means, you know, being a-reciprocal."

T    "And is a-reciprocity real to you?"

C    "Probably.  And I don't know why I'm so afraid of claiming there is an new messiah; it's an philosophical position.  The worse than death is out there.  She is the worse than death.  That's why she's an messiah.  Whether fictitious or not the metaphor points out real things.  An Post-Jesus effect.  (The first lesson was death).  Leading to God's revelation of the new messiah.  (The second lesson was worse than death)."

T    "And you see yourself as needing to tell people this—"

C    "—because that's what God wanted."

T    "Well if God wants it, then, you know; you should do it!"

C    "And you don't have an problem with that as an Psychologist?"

T    "Please honey, we have our knees deep in religious thought as psychologists.  What an bog to be enabled of exploring.  The truth is most people have an sense of religion.  So I can't really avoid it by using my position and status."

C    "Okay well.  I'm afraid that if I tell people this.  They won't believe me.  And they will na me."

T    "Yes this is the word that you previously associated with harm and your abuse by other people.  I remember we likened it to a-reciprocity.  Do you think that?  Do you agree that your religious idea of na is somewhat similar to an a-reciprocate act of communication?"

C    "There are no a-reciprocate acts of communication.  That's not what language is."

T    "But there are a-reciprocate acts of communication.  That's what language is."

C    "Well they totally defeat the purpose of communication."

T    "No.  They don't.  In fact they are an especially delicate and motivating form of identitying and communication.  The daring to speak as though no one would understand what you were saying anyway.  Is one way to look at it.  The A-reciprocal.  If someone is a-reciprocal with you in language, then you know they mean business."

C    "Or you know they don't mean business.  Because they couldn't be bothered to make an meaning for you.  In an reciprocal form of logic.  That can easily be recognized according to its language."

T    "But listen.  If it's not that way.  But that when people are a-reciprocate we need especially to pay attention to them to figure out why.  It's not an question of Capital worth; it's an question of moral value.  Why are you being a-reciprocate to me?  Is what people want to ask.  But we need to raise language to that level so that these words will be effective on the street."

C    "So you admit a-reciprocity is worthy of needing to be ascended because it is an inferior status?"

T    "Well, yes, BUT it's no big deal.  I have an different way of looking at it than you do."

C    "What is your way of looking at it?"

T    "Both are okay.  But a-reciprocate means a-reciprocate.  It has little value in an perfect market ecosystem."

C    "Then you're against it?"

T    "I didn't say I was against it.  It's just that it is an unnatural composure of the human system."

C    "So what exactly is your opinion?"

T    "Go ahead and a-reciprocate.  People need to vent it out.  We've been through War.  And Famine.  And Discovering We're Not The Centre Of the Universe.  But whenever you can reciprocate instead of a-reciprocate, maybe take that option."

C    "So you're saying a-reciprocity may be needed at this point in History?"

T    "Maybe?"

C    "Definitely?"

T    "That's why you're here isn't it?"

C    "Yeah.  I can't a-reciprocate."

T    "Oh.  That's just the sort of thing I came here to listen to.  You can a-reciprocate.  You just don't know how to.  It takes years of torture and mental conditioning to be able to do it.  Well, for the first ones to be able to do it.  But now it may require little more than an finger slide left on the phone."

C    "Well WHAT DO YOU THINK I SHOULD DO‽"

T    "If you're used to reciprocating everything then maybe continue to do that," she said sarcastically.