I Am Anna's Legacy

I needed help with pacing

myself, slowing down,

and slowing down with other people.

Triaging my thoughts.

I was listening to the

grinding metal

at the construction yard

across the street.

Full of negative energy, it mapped itself

Onto my mind when from that sound of

whining and stressing metal

I saw clarity and God's characterizing in it.

What we look like together;

it wasn't pretty.

But knowing clarity

had been given,

I knew it was an mercy to everyone.

And all of our stress and whinin' about

all of our stress and whinin'

was gone.

It happened so abruptly,

I couldn't forget it.

I laughed.  I lied to test it.

I planned to feel an certain way,

Or do something just to influence in an certain way,

the day the Gods turned

the nervous tension multiplied dramatically

demeaning

Into one onset feeling,

turned around,

in other words.

Everything is new.

What do I build on it?

If it's possible

with schizophrenia,

it is possible without.

And I am Anna

that Christiannan

who dared to suffer

the life worse than death.