The Gay Letters, Sept. 8, 2020
A Christianaan is a follower of Anna, the second messiah who suffered the fate-worse-than-death. Anna represents all people who have suffered a fate-worse-than-death. The reason we follow Anna and the people who she represents is to help her (and them). How do you help a person whose fate is worse than death? You ask God for help first. Seriously, a Christiannan attempts to weigh death-fate against the fate-worse-than-death. It means we act in opposition to the fate-worse-than-death. When self-sacrifice leads to the fate-worse-than-death we must act out against it even if Jesus himself would have continued to self-sacrifice. Unfortunately, Christianity often means wanton, wayward self-sacrifice. Furthermore, unfortunately, Christianity often means that a person proven superior to another person in one or more aspect is guilty of crucifying the inferior individual. The appropriately named Bible (“bye-bull”) is a guide to Surrender, instead of Animal Competition. It claims Jesus resurrected but Christiannans do not believe in a literal resurrection, as hopefully few Christians do today. But who can say. Resurrection is a metaphor for morality. It may even be sarcastic.
Judaism is not the Christianna either.
The Christianna is a faith in Anna because crucifixion (death-fate) is not the worst outcome. The fate-worse-than-death is the worst outcome. In this view, Jesus dying on the cross exists along a spectrum of fates. Anna’s fate was worse.
Of course this is often implied in Christianity. But I think it should become explicit.
As with in my definition of resurrection—the guilt on the conscience associated with inflicting murder or inflicting the fate-worse-than-death that lives or dies with the murderer/perpetrator who is alive unlike the victim (this resurrection is less a replacement of previous life than it is a new category of existence of the old one)—is like saying the victim lives in the conscience and hence never dies. Pay careful attention to how this plays out when one is suffering the fate-worse-than-death. Sure, there may be no perpetrator and the victim has somehow arrived at the fate theirself. But if there is a perpetrator the social conscience of that perpetrator must withstand Anna’s Resurrection which will be the social interplay of victims and perpetrators favoring the victim. Anna’s Resurrection, because it is the resurrection from the fate worse than death, is a way of saying that guilt on the conscience favors the victim because it influences social behavior. The perpetrator acts differently because his or her moral conscience is affected and so we have resurrection from death by murder in the living sinner as the metaphor of ‘living conscience’ as it weighs on the competitors. These are just more ways of saying that resurrection is a bogus idea that can be used as a metaphor for explaining the kind of phenomenon that I identify as Christian or Christianaan.
And we have resurrection from the infliction of the fate worse than death, Anna’s Resurrection, as the metaphor of ‘undying conscience’ as it weighs on the competitor. Living conscience is of when it is right to live and undying conscience is of when it is right to die. The reason for this is that death-fate or worse-than-death-fate may be happening in close proximity of time. An individual may suffer a fate worse than death and then die shortly thereafter but this is not a fate worse than a person whom was living the fate worse than death for a longer duration of time living. If the fates are true, even then the perpetrators may not be aware of the fate they have caused but do we know God knows and rewards us or inflicts punishment based on the actual mean?
As Christiannans, we are concerned with people inflicting the fate worse than death on other people.
When people are not responsible for inflicting death or a fate worse than death, and yet either fate is suffered for real, it is of God and Man’s conscience to react in a specific way that may be different than what reaction is specific to punishment of perpetrators but not necessarily to hold themselves accountable unless they can.
The goal of the Christianna is to find a balance between the living and the undying conscience. When life hurts worse than death, a topic for which I ask for diverse opinions, what lives and what dies is our responsibility.
Now if we examine the potentially huge rift between following Jesus (“The right to live”) and following Anna (“The right to die”) we may see that Jesus was God’s “Don’t kill me” but Anna is God’s “Do kill me (with my permission)”. But the point is to follow both Anna and Jesus because the balance between death-fate and fate-worse-than-death must be guarded carefully.
The distinction comes at a time when the Science of biological engineering is buffing up to create species, or updates on the old ones. What if we produce a species which, because of its size or deformity, or intentional modification, suffers so greatly that God knows it is a fate worse than death? Then what do we need to do? The paradox that we would need to kill it but we may not know whether it is suffering is evidence why we do need to kill ourselves sometimes (not that anyone should try to kill themselves but for example MAID should be extended to people living with schizophrenia) because we are aware whether we ourselves are suffering though how much we are aware of how much we are suffering may fluctuate due to social relationships that increase our awareness. We have as well at this point in time not experienced our entire lives and so at the final curtain will we have suffered a fate worse than death? Only time can tell.
Recently the right to death became legislated in Canada when MAID (Medical Assistance In Dying) was allowed for people suffering an illness which we know will soon result in their death.
It requires their permission to administer the fatal dose or to have it self-administered, but a person must have a grievous and irremediable condition as defined in the Criminal Code. The Criminal Code includes four definitions of ‘grievous and irremediable medical condition’. All of these criteria must be met in order to qualify for MAID.
(a) they have a serious and incurable illness, disease or disability;
(b) they are in an advanced state of irreversible decline in capability;
(c) that illness, disease or disability or that state of decline causes them enduring physical or psychological suffering that is intolerable to them and that cannot be relieved under conditions that they consider acceptable; and
(d) their natural death has become reasonably foreseeable, taking into account all of their medical circumstances, without a prognosis necessarily having been made as to the specific length of time that they have remaining.
Sometimes I ask whether I am suffering the fate-worse-than-death. But my life is interesting because I had a vision of Anna on December 13th 2014 and wrote this scriptural lyric, which is of Christianaan sacred writings.
She is the princess
of birth and
middle life
the internal coming
of Christ 2
the other
would beam
to
his upon the cross
of life and death
her sacrifice is not on the
cross, it is private in all
not public, but domestic, and
gay, a new life in love
the golden cherub spoke
the cross is the historical
oppression of women
the new life in
the female messiah
has filtered her out
onto the public
this is her death
and this is her resurrection
it is her resurrection
with this word
The Gay Letters, Sept. 9, 2020
The Christianna is a Religion
Of Love,
The Christianna is a Religion
Of the Gay Letters,
The Christianna is a Religion
Of Anna,
We may lose our shape sometime
Shapes have middles
But we slough off the dead material
And become our Middle again
The Middle of Love, the Middle of the Gay Letters, Time, and the Middle of Anna.
The Middle of Anna is like a healer whose footprint is the invigorating Anna’s Resurrection.
Well don’t expect much from her; she suffers the fate worse than death.
What is Anna’s Resurrection?
It is the comfort of the undying complementing the living—which is living conscience and undying conscience living that we know in harmony as is the comfort of the living which is the undying conscience and the living conscience in complementary fashion in harmony as well. In addition, living conscience is of when it is right to live and the undying conscience is of when it is right to die.
The Undying holds the universe together,
Together,
An imprint in time.
For it is what has occurred
can never be taken away,
Can never be repeated
by the virtue that time is unique.
The Living is a contrast to the Undying; the pair implies that choosing when to live and when to die is the Primary freedom to choose what lives and dies versus what will live on forever.
The Living and the Undying as concepts make us think about what achievement we have already accomplished on a universal level (the Undying) and what achievement we have not already accomplished can represent the Living will, be that what they have not been before is being of that they thirst to be, and all of us are of being that thirst to be, and living is that thirst to be made new. That the thirst is being of satiate and then of returning as thirst. Always new.
Being gay is not a fate worse than death.
My father always told me not to lie. When I learned I was probably gay I did not know how not to lie about it. I had been to church, and reading about “the gay agenda” online, I was concerned that being gay was a type of sexual stigmata caused by the sin of a community, that beyond my control, I was gay and I could not lie to say I was not gay but I had to combat or reverse what had been done to me. I had been ostracized by my peers for many years (called a faggot, queer, etc.) and I ailed because of it, wondered that had that caused my homosexuality, all homosexuality was a perversion of the message of Jesus and this needed to stop in order I would be healed and become straight. I needed to become healed for the community to be healed. It motivated me to try to understand God. But I could not be “healed” because being gay is genetic.
I think being gay is genetic because it took a large portion of my life to understand that I could do nothing about it. I studied psychology at the University of Alberta, and was taught that in studies where one identical twin is gay show greater chance that the other twin will be gay as well. At that point I still did not believe being gay was okay but after years of trying to be straight I came out as a gay individual to my friends and family.
It was scary.
Being gay is naturally God’s will.
But humanity is not this, as advanced as this. How can we speak of the nature of God when we cannot all accept the reality that God is God? We speak of an old man in the clouds, looking down on us, in order to ridicule the idea or we ask the religious to show us God, because none can point and say God is present or speaking to us.
That’s what being gay is like.
How do you hear God/Gay?
To interact with God/Gay is like a conversation but hard to grasp because we naturally communicate using our voices, body language, signs and symbols.
To interact with the divine,
we see the snow;
God/Gay blankets everything but there is no comfort.
We hear the wind;
God/Gay speaks through everything but there is no voice.
To answer why we cannot hear God/Gay
but we are God/Gay
and our voices can be God/Gay’s.
God/Gay speaks to me through insect life
when they appear they are a bother, a pestilence, a character
that we crush or let live on
as God/Gay sees us
If it was not this way all reality would be slavery of one being over another
because God/Gay does not enslave us.
Being gay is not a sexual stigmata.
"The perpetrator acts differently because his or her moral conscience is affected and so we have resurrection from death-by-murder in the living sinner as the metaphor of ‘living conscience’ as it weighs on the competitors."
The point here was that when we sin against each other (in this case by murdering) it weighs on our living conscience, and alters our behavior.
"And we have resurrection from the infliction of the fate worse than death, Anna’s Resurrection, as the metaphor of ‘undying conscience’ as it weighs on the competitor. Living conscience is of when it is right to live and undying conscience is of when it is right to die."
Living conscience passes from one person to another when we die. Undying conscience does not. Undying conscience is not affected by sin. There is something gratifying and mysterious about an undying conscience. Is undying conscience God's conscience in us? Or is undying conscience due to everything humanity has achieved ultimately? Or is it both?
"The goal of the Christianna is to find a balance between the living and the undying conscience."
When there is balance between living and undying conscience we find our right to have purpose. It can be found in the middle between them that we can laugh about death and the fate worse than death, because the Middle is the celebration of everything pleasant.
ex:
"Over my dead body."
"Did you see that dress she's wearing? It's a fate worse than death."
Living conscience dies.
Undying conscience does not.
This is how we will wash away all of our sins.
The Gay Letters, Nov. 9, 2020
After reading above all of what I had written on the subject of living and undying conscience, I still felt unclear about what I was trying to say. I said that living conscience implies death, and that it is passed from one person to another in death. I said that undying conscience does not imply death, and that it is not passed from one person to another in death. Perhaps what I mean is clearer to be understood as living and undying motivation. Although we can safely say a conscience is a motivator. The way I picture it right now is that undying conscience or motivation launches spiritually empowered reproductive efforts while the living conscience or motivation accepts that death is inevitable.
I wrote that the goal of the Christianna is to find a balance between them. Philosophically, if we place ourselves in a world divided between living and undying conscience, we see that undying conscience is the part of our conscience that addresses the undying: i.e. people whom have not been born (hence why they cannot die). It is this balance between what has already been created versus what has not already been created that drives the philosophic engine of the faith, and the blog about the Christianna.
We must consider the living and the undying to be measurement utilities of conscience influenced by how badly the fate worse than death weighs on them.
If the living conscience's aspect is of who is between being born and dying, and the undying conscience's aspect is of who is between worse-than-death and not-worse-than-death, then what has never lived that we cannot live better than with or without our deaths?
A fate worse than death must end at some point.
We all die eventually.
But how long will we suffer our living conscience not to be corrected by our undying conscience?
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